If Earth Were Sky (And Sky Above)
A Poem of Love and Loss After the Death of My Son to Suicide
“If Earth Were Sky (And Sky Above)”
By Beth Brown
If earth were sky and sky above Then heart could hold this ache of love, Suspended, like rain, in clouds wanting to fall, But bound to sun’s joy because heart touches all. I fall ‘ere so slowly most cannot yet tell My pain lives so deep and my heart goes through hell. I crawl more than walk through days such as these Heavy with sorrow, wanting only ache relieved. And yet truly what is can’t be undone, I’ve lost my life in the loss of my son. For seven years counting this marking of time Having lost in him life, both his then and mine. I stay hollow inside though try as I might Come to from the damage of my now soiled life. I’d rather be still with my son by my side My heart filled with love and my joy still alive.
For Dylan, Always for Dylan
©Beth Brown, 2021
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