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A close-up of a vibrant white daisy with a bright yellow center surrounded by more daisies in a lush green garden, My Forever Son, Why Suicides Spike in Spring and Summer

Why Suicides Spike in Spring and Summer

Why do suicides spike in spring and summer instead of winter?  Drawing from lived loss and suicide research, this essay explores seasonal suicide risk, myths, and biological factors—while walking with parents grieving a child’s suicide and readers seeking understanding with compassion.

Key Takeaways

  • Suicides tend to spike in spring and summer, influenced by unpredictable weather and personal trauma.
  • The author shares a personal loss, describing the emotional turmoil following their son’s suicide during a stormy summer.
  • Winter can feel heavy and numb, contrasting with the chaotic emotions that spring and summer evoke.
  • Reconstructing a self after such loss takes time, and the author navigates seasons while seeking peace and connection.
  • The piece “Why Suicides Spike in Spring and Summer” reflects on the challenges of reconciling summer, the season that took the author’s son, and the ongoing struggle with grief.

Summary

“Why Suicides Spike in Spring and Summer” reflects on the challenges of reconciling summer, the season that took the author’s son, and the ongoing struggle with grief. As days grow longer and nature bursts into vibrant life, the contrast between the external beauty of summer and the internal despair experienced by those in mourning becomes painfully stark. The warmth and brightness that typically signify joy and renewal often serve as a reminder of lost loved ones, intensifying feelings of isolation and sorrow.

The author delves into personal memories that intertwine with the season, illustrating how each blooming flower and sunny afternoon can evoke bittersweet recollections, pushing the individual further into their grief. Amidst the societal expectations to celebrate and enjoy the summer, many find themselves battling an invisible weight, one that complicates their ability to participate in the very joys that surround them, ultimately leading to a critical reflection on mental health and the importance of understanding and compassion during these emotionally charged times.

Suicides often rise in spring because energy and agitation can return  before  hope does. Longer days, shifting routines, and biological stressors—like  allergy‑related inflammation  and disrupted sleep—can intensify depression. The contrast between a “bright” world and internal pain can deepen isolation, increasing risk.  


My Forever Son

Bright Yellow Sunflower Close Up in Full Sunshine, My Forever Son, Why Suicide Spikes in Spring and Summer

My Forever Son explores the profound grief, hope, and healing that follow the tragedy of losing a child to suicide.

My Forever Son dovetails the author’s journey of descending into deep grief, searching for hope, and finding healing along the way.


Table of Contents


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Why Suicides Spike in Spring and Summer

My Forever Son

When the World Wakes and I Do Not

Spring arrives with insistence.
Longer days. Blooming flowers. The demand to come alive again.

For many, it is a season of relief. For others—especially those living with depression—it is something else entirely. And for me, summer will always carry the weight of loss.

I lost my son, Dylan, to suicide on June 25, 2012. A Monday. 1:52 a.m. Barely into summer. The day of his funeral, a violent derecho tore through central Ohio—triple‑digit heat collapsing into screaming winds and sudden darkness. Nature itself seemed to rupture.

For years I believed summer was only personal grief. But research tells a more complicated, unsettling truth.

Suicide does not peak in winter.

It rises in  spring and summer.

The Myth We Hold—and the Data We Avoid

There is a persistent belief that suicide is most common during the winter holidays—November through January. Thanksgiving. Christmas. New Year’s. Loneliness framed by lights.

But this is a myth.

What Research Shows About Springtime Suicide Spikes

Epidemiological research across countries and decades shows that  suicide rates reliably increase in spring and early summer, with the lowest rates in winter. April through June are consistently the highest‑risk months.

This contradiction—bright days paired with rising suicide risk—forces us to ask harder questions.

If you’re seeking a clear, compassionate breakdown of suicide data, this post offers context and clarity:
👉  2023 Suicide Statistics: A Deep Dive Into the Crisis

Why Suicide Rates Increase in Spring and Summer

Why Spring Can Be Dangerous

Psychiatrists and public‑health researchers describe several overlapping factors:

  • Energy returns before hope does.
    People who have struggled through winter depression may experience increased motivation in spring—without relief from despair.
  • The contrast effect.
    When the world appears joyful and renewed, those who still feel broken can experience intensified isolation and shame.
  • Biological factors.
    Inflammation related to seasonal allergies, autoimmune conditions, and disrupted circadian rhythms has been linked to worsening depression.

The Role of Inflammation, Allergies, and Mental Health

Spring does not cure depression.
Sometimes it activates it.

For deeper understanding of  why  suicide is not a choice—and why blame is misplaced—these pieces may help readers and supporters alike:

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Bright red roses blooming on a green leafy bush, My Forever Son, Why Suicides Spike in Spring and Summer

Summer: The Season That Took My Son

Summer still arrests my breath.

Others speak of vacations, cookouts, light.
I practice avoidance. I dread its arrival. I hate summer.

Summer took my son.

Grief does not follow meteorological seasons, yet the body remembers. Each June carries the echo of storms—unpredictable, sudden, violent. A derecho out of nowhere. A life gone.

That storm taught me something useful, if unbearable:
Suicide is often sudden, rupturing, and unseen until it is already upon us.

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A softly glowing outdoor lamp illuminates a snow-covered garden at dusk, My Forever Son, Why Suicide Spike in Spring and Summer

The Seasonal Suicide Myth: Why Winter Isn’t the Highest Risk

The Heaviness of Winter—and Why It Can Feel Safer

Winter, for all its numbness, can feel survivable.

There is a stillness. A permission to withdraw. Depression in winter often looks like dormancy. No sap running. No expectation to bloom.

Spring demands otherwise.

Biology, Depression, and the Return of Energy Without Hope

Dylan attempted suicide five times between January and May. Each attempt survived, each spring closer to the end. By summer, the energy exceeded the restraint.

This pattern is not rare.


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A young man in a denim jacket looks thoughtfully downward against a blurred natural backdrop, My Forever Son, Why Suicides Spike in Spring and Summer

Myths That Keep Us Unsafe

Common Myths About Suicide That Harm the Bereaved

False ideas about suicide do real harm. They delay vigilance, skew prevention efforts, and deepen stigma for families left behind.

Understanding Suicide Beyond Blame and Misconception

For readers wanting clarity, these posts directly address common misconceptions:

Understanding suicide does not increase risk.
Silence does.


Reconstructing a Self—One Season at a Time

I died in summer 2012.
What followed has been reconstruction.

Not redemption. Not closure. Just learning how to live across seasons without my son.

Living Through the Seasons After Losing a Child to Suicide

Rebuilding a Life After Suicide Loss—One Season at a Time

Winter taught me how to endure. Spring taught me vigilance. Summer taught me humility before forces I cannot control.

I live right here, right now—in whatever season it is. Tonight it is cold. I am going to meet a friend for tea. Small continuations matter.


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A close-up of a bright yellow vibrant false sunflower showcasing its detailed petals and textured green leaves, My Forever Son, Why Suicides Spike in Spring and Summer

For Those Who Are Grieving—and Those Who Want to Help

If you are a parent walking this road, you are not alone.
If you are trying to understand how to support those bereaved by suicide loss, your willingness to learn matters more than perfect words.

Why Parents Who Lose a Child to Suicide Struggle in Summer

You may also find these pieces grounding:

Summer and Suicide Loss: When Grief Collides With Sunshine

I believe that those who may have spent the winter depressed find themselves, in the spring, still depressed, but with the energy and motivation to take their own life.

I also think spring is particularly tough for people who are depressed because after a largely solitary winter, those people emerge into a world full of rebirth, rejuvenation and revelry. In contrast, they feel dark and sad.

Adam Kaplin, Johns Hopkins psychiatrist, Suicide Rates Spike in Spring

What Research Shows About Springtime Suicide Spikes

Spring and summer do not  cause  suicide.
But they can create dangerous intersections of biology, psychology, and expectation.

If we are willing to look honestly—past myth, past comfort—we may learn when to lean in harder.

For Dylan.
For those still here.


For Readers & Supporters

If you’re here because you’ve lost a child to suicide—or because you love someone who has—understanding  why  suicide happens can soften blame, shame, and isolation.

What the research tells us:

  • Suicide rates are  lowest in winter  and  highest in spring and early summer.
  • Increased daylight and energy can arrive  before relief from depression, creating risk.
  • Environmental and biological factors—including inflammation and allergies—can worsen mood disorders.
  • Suicide is  not a character flaw, moral failure, or choice made freely.

If you want clear, compassionate context, these posts may help:

If you are supporting a suicide‑loss parent:

  • You cannot fix this—but you can  stay.
  • Say their child’s name.
  • Remember anniversaries and seasons.
  • Let grief be nonlinear and lifelong.

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A vibrant cluster of red flowers peeks through lush green leaves in a sunlit garden, My Forever Son, Why Suicides Spike in Spring and Summer

Frequently Asked Questions

Why do suicides spike in spring instead of winter?

Suicide rates are consistently highest in spring and early summer, not winter. Research suggests that after a long winter of depression, people may experience a return of physical energy before their emotional suffering eases—creating a dangerous window of risk.
For a deeper look at the data, see:
👉 2023 Suicide Statistics: A Deep Dive Into the Crisis

Is suicide really a choice?

No. Suicide is not a freely made choice—it is most often the result of intense psychological pain combined with biological and environmental stressors that overwhelm coping capacity. Understanding this helps reduce blame and stigma for families left behind.
Learn more here:
👉 Is Suicide Really a Choice? Breaking the Stigma
👉 Understanding Suicide: It’s Not a Choice

Why can spring and summer feel especially hard for grieving parents?

Seasons associated with joy and renewal can amplify grief after suicide loss. Parents may feel isolated as the world celebrates while their child is missing, and anniversaries often cluster in warmer months. This mismatch between internal pain and external expectation can be deeply destabilizing.
Related reading:
👉 Understanding the Unique Aspects of Suicide Grief

What myths about suicide harm families the most?

Common myths—such as “suicide happens most at the holidays” or “love should have been enough”—misdirect prevention efforts and deepen guilt for parents. Replacing myth with understanding saves lives and supports the bereaved.
Explore more here:
👉 Breaking the Stigma: Facts About Suicide and Compassion

How can I support someone who has lost a child to suicide?

You cannot fix suicide loss—but you can stay. Speak the child’s name, remember significant dates, and allow grief to unfold without deadlines. Presence is more important than explanations.
Helpful context:
👉 Understanding Suicide: Why the Pain Matters


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Sunflower in Sunshine, My Forever Son, Why Suicide Spikes in Spring and Summer

Beth Brown, Author

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Beth Brown, author and educator, sharing her journey of healing through poetry after the loss of her son

About the Author

Beth Brown is a writer, educator, and bereaved mother who shares her journey of healing after losing her only son, Dylan, to suicide. Through poetry, essays, and her blog My Forever Son, Beth offers comfort and hope to others navigating grief, honoring the enduring bond between parent and child and celebrating the small joys that illuminate the path toward healing.

Meet the Author: Writing Through the Abyss

by Beth Brown

There are places that cannot be mapped, only entered—terrains of loss where language falters and the heart, stripped of its certainties, must learn to speak again. I am Beth Brown, a mother whose son, Dylan, died by suicide at twenty. My life, once measured by the ordinary rhythms of teaching literature and nurturing a child, was pierced in two: before and after. In the aftermath, I found myself wandering a wilderness where time bent, memory ached, and the world’s colors dimmed to the hush of grief.

On baby’s breath and angel wings,
You bring me love yet still,
— “On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings”

I did not choose to become a chronicler of sorrow, but grief, relentless and unbidden, pressed its ink into my hands. I wrote because I could not bear the silence. I wrote because the ache demanded witness. In poetry, I found a way to hold both the weight of absence and the persistence of love—a language for the unspeakable, a vessel for memory, a place where my son’s name could still be spoken.

He left too soon,
Lifting life from June,
Casting torrents of rain.
“He Left Too Soon”

There are nights when the world tilts, and I am returned to the moment of loss, the fracture that remade me. Yet even in the deepest dark, I have learned to listen for the faint music of hope, the pulse of love that endures beyond death.

Beat still my heart,
Beat still my mind,
Weary though thou art,
Carry his love along with thine,
Though heavy on thy shoulders
Crost fields throughout all time.
“Beat Still My Heart”

My poems are not answers. They are offerings—fragments of a life lived in the shadow of absence, pieced together with longing and the fierce, unyielding devotion of a mother’s heart. They are the record of a journey through the labyrinth of grief, where each turn reveals both the ache of what is lost and the quiet radiance of what remains.

My child sleeps in a cradle of stars,
Gently rocked by the moon
Lullabies in his heart,
Heavens in galaxies swirl round to the sound
Of a mother and child’s love beating on.

Meteor showers, on the darkest of nights,
Bring comfort and joy to my child’s delight,
Aurora Borealis tints sky blue and green,
Where my child remembers his mother in dreams.

–“Falling Stars in a Moonless Sky”

There are questions that haunt the bereaved: Could I have known? Could I have saved you? The mind circles these unanswerable riddles, but the heart, battered and tender, learns to rest in the mystery.

I’d have reached right in to your dark night’s soul—
I would have held on, I would have clutched you,
I would have never let you go
But you told me “Mom I love you”
Oh my child, if I’d only known.
“Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon”

In the landscape of loss, I have discovered that love is not diminished by death. It is transformed—becoming both ache and solace, shadow and light, the filament that binds the living to the lost.

Body, mind, soul, rough and ragged,
Weeping tears falling still throughout time,
Carrying weight of mourning and grieving
Falling broken when thou wert mine.
“Beat Still My Heart”

I write for those who walk this wilderness with me—for the mothers and fathers, siblings and friends, whose lives have been marked by the unthinkable. My hope is that in these poems, you will find not only the echo of your own sorrow, but also the quiet assurance that you are not alone.

Starlight for a mobile twinkling ‘ere so bright,
To remember his mother that darkest of nights,
When slipped he from her grasp and fell through this earth,
Tumbling still planets, sun, folding time in rebirth.
— “Falling Stars in a Moonless Sky”

That we might understand we cannot separate mental illness from physical illness and that try as we might, we cannot see inside another’s pain.

–“Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand”

And how my heart keeps on beating
Is a mystery to all,
For without you beside me
Through life’s depth I crawl
.

I live now life backwards
My heart beating in time,
To the life that we lived
When you, child, were mine.

Try as I might
I can’t seem to live,
For my dreams all belonged,
To your future forward lived.

“Bury My Heart”

If you have come here searching for words to companion your grief, I welcome you. My poetry is not a map, but a lantern—casting light on the path we walk, together and alone, toward a horizon where love, undiminished, endures.

But boughs break and love falls through the cracks in the earth,
And the centre can’t hold when orbits, slung far, break their girth,
Gravitational interference, passing stars in the night,
Jetting orbs, falling stars in a moonless sky.
“Falling Stars in a Moonless Sky”

Grief is wild—untamed, unending, and full of shadows. Yet within its depths, I have found moments of light: a memory, a poem, the gentle rustle of leaves, the warmth of a cup of tea. My words are both ache and love, a testament that even in the deepest sorrow, we can find meaning, connection, and—sometimes—hope. Through poetry, I reach for my son and for all who walk this path. If you find yourself here, know that you are not alone, and that love—like poetry—endures.


If you wish to read more, my collection, Bury My Heart: 19 Poems for Grief and Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide is available on Amazon Kindle. and many other reflections await you at myforeverson.com.

Bury My Heart

Bury My Heart: 19 Poems for Grief and Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide


The Story of My Forever Son

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What Happened? The Backstory to My Forever Son: A Mother’s Grief

I started this blog, My Forever Son: Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide in 2015, three years into my journey of grief. You can read more about what happened here: The Backstory to My Forever Son: A Mother’s Grief recounts the author’s harrowing experience of losing her son to suicide. Her story highlights her grief, guilt, and the healing power of writing, especially through works like the “If Earth Were Sky (And Sky Above)” poem: reflections on love and loss. The blog “My Forever Son” came about as a way for the author to work through this devastating grief that follows the loss of a child to suicide. My Forever Son blog serves as a platform for sharing experiences and finding healing and solace in community.

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Delicate coral flowers surrounded by lush green leaves, symbolizing the beauty and resilience of nature amidst grief, My Forever Son, Find Hope Here: Poetic Reflections on Grief and Healing

Find Hope Here: Poetic Reflections on Grief and Healing

Find Hope Here: Poetic Reflections on Grief and Healing offers a heartfelt collection of poems that deeply resonate with the profound sorrow of parents who have experienced the unimaginable pain of losing a child to suicide. These poignant verses navigate the intense emotions of this tragic loss, beautifully capturing the stages of grief while gently guiding readers towards hope and healing on their journey through grief.

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A majestic magnolia tree in full bloom, symbolizing resilience and beauty amidst grief, The Magnolia Tree: A Symbol of Grief and Resilience, My Forever Son

The Magnolia Tree: A Symbol of Grief and Resilience

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A close-up of vibrant red and purple leaves scattered on the ground, symbolizing the beauty and transience of nature, My Forever Son, Understanding the Unique Aspects of Suicide Grief

Understanding the Unique Aspects of Suicide Grief

Understanding the Unique Aspects of Suicide Grief compassionately delves into the profound challenges of navigating the grief that follows a suicide. The author, who has experienced the heart-wrenching loss of her son, shares her deeply moving personal journey, offering comfort and understanding to those who find themselves in similar anguish. This heartfelt post not only shares her story but also provides a thoughtful collection of articles and professional resources, aimed at helping parents cope with the unimaginable pain of losing a child to suicide.

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A woman reflecting on her grief, capturing the profound emotions associated with loss and healing, Navigating Guilt in Grief: A Parent’s Guide, My Forever Son

Navigating Guilt in Grief: A Parent’s Guide

Navigating Guilt in Grief: A Parent’s Guide offers a gentle and understanding perspective on the complex emotions that emerge after the devastating loss of a loved one through suicide, particularly from the vantage point of parents.This guide thoughtfully addresses the overwhelming and often contradictory feelings of grief, guilt, and sorrow that can envelop parents navigating such profound heartache.

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A delicate orange rose embodying beauty and resilience, symbolizing love and remembrance, Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide: A Guide for Parents, My Forever Son

Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide: A Guide for Parents

Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide: A Guide for Parents gently supports parents navigating the profound sorrow of losing a child to suicide. This heartfelt article acknowledges the intense grief that such a tragedy brings and offers compassionate guidance on finding a way forward. The healing strategies shared emphasize self-care and the importance of seeking professional help, while inviting parents to connect with others who understand their pain.


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A vibrant display of peach-colored flowers, symbolizing love and remembrance, Carrying Ache and Love: Healing Longterm Grief in Suicide Loss, My Forever Son

Carrying Ache and Love: Healing Longterm Grief in Suicide Loss

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A serene landscape featuring a calm river surrounded by lush green trees and majestic mountains, symbolizing peace and reflection in the journey of grief, When Love Isn’t Enough: “Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand,” My Forever Son

When Love Isn’t Enough: “Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand”

When Love Isn’t Enough: “Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand,” explores the difficult topic of suicide through the touching treatise, “Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand,” which challenges the idea that it is just a choice. This meaningful work discusses the certainty of death, no matter the cause, and the limits of love in preventing such loss. Beth Brown, who wrote both the treatise and this article, shares her personal journey of grief after losing her son to suicide, finding comfort in writing and nature photography.

Meet Dylan, My Forever Son

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A joyful moment captured of Dylan, radiating happiness while seated outdoors, My Forever Son, Twenty Years of Love: Dylan

Twenty Years of Love: Dylan

Twenty Years of Love: Dylan offers a poignant exploration of grief and loss, blending together cherished memories and reflections on Dylan’s life. The emotional resonance of this piece is deeply felt, beautifully portraying both the love and sorrow that the author carries in their heart. The thoughtful inclusion of links to further readings about Dylan and resources for support is a compassionate touch that adds immense value to those who may be navigating similar journeys.


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A serene pathway lined with fallen leaves, symbolizing the journey of grief and remembrance, Walking through Shadows: Surviving the Unthinkable Loss of a Child to Suicide, My Forever Son

Walking Through Shadows: Surviving the Unthinkable Loss of a Child to Suicide

Walking through Shadows: Surviving the Unthinkable Loss of a Child to Suicide offers a deeply moving and heartfelt narrative that illuminates the unimaginable pain of losing a child to suicide. The personal stories shared create a sincere and unfiltered glimpse into the heavy journey of grief and the gradual path toward healing. Through poignant reflections and a poetic exploration on grief, the author navigates the chaotic emotions that accompany such a catastrophic event, revealing both the struggles and the moments of unexpected solace that can emerge even in the darkest times.


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A serene lion statue surrounded by fallen leaves, symbolizing strength and remembrance in the context of cherished memories, My Forever Son, I Want It All Back: Remembering Dylan, My Forever Son

I Want It All Back: Remembering Dylan, My Forever Son

I Want It All Back: Remembering Dylan, My Forever Son lovingly encapsulates the profound heartache and cherished memories tied to the author’s beloved son, Dylan. Through heartfelt imagery and poignant personal stories, it invites readers to share in an emotional journey that resonates deeply, fostering a compassionate understanding of loss and love.


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Vibrant autumn leaves showcasing shades of red and green, symbolizing the beauty of change and memory, My Forever Son, I Want to Believe: Searching for Hope After Losing My Son to Suicide

I Want to Believe: Searching for Hope After Losing My Son to Suicide

I Want to Believe: Searching for Hope After Losing My Son to Suicide is a heartfelt collection of personal reflections and cherished memories that navigates the profound journey of grief and hope following the heartbreaking loss of a son to suicide. The rawness of the emotions is deeply felt, drawing readers into a shared space of empathy. Through vivid descriptions and nostalgic elements, the work evokes a sense of connection and understanding, while the stunning images inspire hope and healing amidst the sorrow.


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A tender moment between a mother and her joyful child, celebrating cherished memories of Dylan’s early years, My Forever Son, Dylan: Forever Loved and Remembered in Our Hearts

Dylan: Forever Loved and Remembered in Our Hearts

Dylan: Forever Loved and Remembered in Our Hearts invites readers into the heart/h-wrenching yet beautifully profound journey of a mother’s grief after the devastating loss of her beloved 20-year-old son, Dylan, who tragically died by suicide. Through a heartfelt collection of original poems and personal reflections, she courageously shares the painful complexities of her sorrow, the small moments of hope that emerged, and her ongoing path toward healing.


Heartfelt Stories and Poems of Love and Loss

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A vibrant red rose resting on delicate white flowers of Baby’s Breath, symbolizing love and remembrance, “On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” Poem: Grieving a Child’s Suicide, My Forever Son

“On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” Poem: Grieving a Child’s Suicide

“On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” Poem: Grieving a Child’s Suicide delves into the deep, heart-wrenching sorrow of losing a child to suicide. This poignant piece not only articulates the immense pain of such a loss but also provides vital resources to navigate the challenging journey of grief. With tender personal reflections and thoughtful coping strategies, the post and poem, “On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” serves as a compassionate companion for those who are enduring similar heartaches. 

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A Grandmother’s Love Held Together the Family Table

A Grandmother’s Love Held Together the Family Table chronicles a family’s journey through the loss of their beloved son, Dylan. This tragedy alters their connections, turning a joyful gathering space into one of reflection. The narrative captures the struggle between despair and acceptance, underscoring love’s enduring power amidst heartache. In honoring Dylan’s memory, they find unexpected joy in their grief, illustrating the resilience of the human spirit in the face of loss.

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A fluffy puppy sitting outdoors, embodying innocence and companionship, My Forever Son, Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide

Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide

Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide gently delves into the profound and heart-wrenching sorrow experienced by grandparents who endure the unimaginable loss of their grandchild. This painful journey envelops them in a dual mourning, as they grieve not only the precious life that is gone but also the shattered dreams and cherished memories that will sorrowfully remain unrealized for their own child, the grieving parent.

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A mother watches over her son in a hospital bed, embodying the pain and hope intertwined with the journey of healing and survival, My Forever Son, Memorial Day: A Mother’s Reflection on Loss, Love, and Unbearable Tragedy

Memorial Day: A Mother’s Reflection on Loss, Love, and Unbearable Tragedy

Memorial Day: A Mother’s Reflection on Loss, Love, and Unbearable Tragedy beautifully captures the deep sorrow and unwavering love a mother feels for her son. The author bravely shares her heartfelt journey, navigating the immense pain and heartbreak tied to her son’s fourth suicide attempt on Memorial Day. Through her poignant narrative, she reveals the complex layers of a mother’s grief, intricately woven with fleeting moments of hope that resonate powerfully with anyone who is facing loss.

Close-up of a soft white peony flower with delicate pink accents, symbolizing beauty and remembrance, My Forever Son, “Shaped by Love and This Grief Come to Stay" A Poem on Suicide Loss
A close-up of a delicate white flower with soft pink accents, symbolizing beauty and remembrance, My Forever Son, Holding True to My Son’s Narrative: “Shaped by Love” Poem Analysis

“Shaped by Love–And This Grief Come to Stay”: A Poem on Suicide Loss

Holding True to My Son’s Narrative: “Shaped by Love” Poem Analysis explores the profound sorrow a parent endures after losing a child to suicide. It addresses themes of grief and guilt, highlighting the heavy shadow such a tragedy casts on life. This poignant narrative captures a parent’s transformative journey in the wake of their child’s absence, revealing emotions of shame while confronting societal stigma surrounding suicide. With compassion and insight, the poem resonates with anyone who has faced similar heart-wrenching experiences.

A vibrant yellow rose symbolizing love and remembrance, My Forever Son, 11 Years After Suicide Loss: I Still Want to Believe
A vibrant yellow rose symbolizing love and remembrance, My Forever Son, 11 Years After Suicide Loss: I Still Want to Believe

11 Years After Suicide Loss: I Still Want to Believe

11 Years After Suicide Loss: I Still Want to Believe powerfully conveys the depths of my unyielding grief and a relentless yearning for my beloved son, Dylan, whose vibrant spirit was tragically stolen by suicide eleven heart-wrenching years ago at merely twenty. As my only child, his absence has carved an immense void in my soul, reshaping every facet of my life while perpetually stirring the cherished memories of the beautiful moments we once savored together.


a stack of books about grief, hope, and healing after suicide loss, My Forever Son, Healing Poems for Grieving Parents: Finding Hope
Books for Grief, Hope, and Healing After Suicide Loss, My Forever Son, Why Suicides Spike in Spring and Summer

If You Need Immediate Support

Online Directory for Coping with Grief, Trauma, and Distress

After A Suicide Resource Directory: Coping with Grief, Trauma, and Distress
http://www.personalgriefcoach.net
This online directory links people who are grieving after a suicide death to resources and information.

Alliance of Hope for Suicide Survivors
http://www.allianceofhope.org
This organization for survivors of suicide loss provides information sheets, a blog, and a community forum through which survivors can share with each other.

Friends for Survival
http://www.friendsforsurvival.org
This organization is for suicide loss survivors and professionals who work with them. It produces a monthly newsletter and runs the Suicide Loss Helpline (1-800-646-7322). It also published Pathways to Purpose and Hope, a guide to building a community-based suicide survivor support program.

HEARTBEAT: Grief Support Following Suicide
http://heartbeatsurvivorsaftersuicide.org
This organization has chapters providing support groups for survivors of suicide loss in Colorado and some other states. Its website provides information sheets for survivors and a leader’s guide on how to start a new chapter of HEARTBEAT.

Professional Organizations

American Association of Suicidology
suicidology.org • (202) 237-2280
Promotes public awareness, education and training for professionals, and sponsors an annual Healing After Suicide conference for suicide loss survivors. In addition to the conference, they offer a coping with suicide grief handbook by Jeffrey Jackson. This booklet is also available in Spanish.

The Compassionate Friends
compassionatefriends.org • (877) 969-0010
Offers resources for families after the death of a child. They sponsor support groups, newsletters and online support groups throughout the country, as well as an annual national conference for bereaved families.

The Dougy Center
The National Center for Grieving Children & Families
dougy.org • (503) 775-5683
Publishes extensive resources for helping children and teens who are grieving a death including death by suicide. Resources include the “Children, Teens and Suicide Loss” booklet created in partnership with AFSP. This booklet is also available in Spanish.

Link’s National Resource Center for Suicide Prevention and Aftercare
thelink.org/nrc-for-suicide-prevention-aftercar • 404-256-2919
Dedicated to reaching out to those whose lives have been impacted by suicide and connecting them to available resources.

Tragedy Assistance Programs for Survivors (TAPS)
taps.org/suicide • (800) 959-TAPS (8277)
Provides comfort, care and resources to all those grieving the death of a military loved one through a national peer support network and connection to grief resources, all at no cost to surviving families and loved ones.

LOSS
losscs.org
Offers support groups, remembrance events, companioning, suicide postvention and prevention education, and training to other communities interested in developing or enhancing their suicide postvention and prevention efforts.

Crisis Services

988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline
988lifeline.org
Call or text 988 (press 1 for Veterans, 2 for Spanish, 3 for LGBTQ+ youth and young adults) or chat 988lifeline.org
A 24-hour, toll-free suicide prevention service available to anyone in suicidal crisis. You will be routed to the closest possible crisis center in your area. With crisis centers across the country, their mission is to provide immediate assistance to anyone seeking mental health services. Call for yourself, or someone you care about. Your call is free and confidential.

Crisis Text Line
crisistextline.org
Text TALK to 741-741 for English
Text AYUDA to 741-741 for Spanish
Provides free, text-based mental health support and crisis intervention by empowering a community of trained volunteers to support people in their moments of need, 24/7.



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By Beth Brown

Musician. Writer. Literary Connoisseur. Always writing, scribbling poetry, turning feelings into words. "Break my heart even further" can't ever be done, for I lost my heart the night I lost my son. Come find me writing at My Forever Son: Grief, Hope, and Healing After Losing My Son to Suicide.

At the whim of Most Beloved Cat, I write as she tattles on the garden cats. Find Most Beloved Cat sharing her stories at Gardens at Effingham: Where Cats Tell the Tales

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