As I Tuck You In: A Song About Child Loss

As I Tuck You In: A Lullaby for the Child I Lost

Lyrics for the Song: As I Tuck You In

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As I Tuck You In: Remembering Dylan

Remembering Dylan

I wrote and recorded this song, As I Tuck You In, as a lullaby for my son Dylan. I’ve written 18 songs altogether about losing my son. Each song is born from a grief too deep for expression in any language save music. My Child on Earth Above, In Heaven’s Care is a lullaby. Dylan is, was, and always will be my heart’s song. I miss my son.

I remember when Dylan was 8 years old, just beginning piano lessons, and I used to drive him to a local university to take lessons in their music conservatory. We would make the same trip to the university each week for the next 6 years.

I loved hearing Dylan practice. Schroeder, from “Charlie Brown,” always sat on top of the upright Schuerman piano. Scott Joplin’s ragtime, Snoopy’s happy dance song, classical pieces, and eventually, jazz (Thelonious Monk) all wafted up from the lower level of our house into the kitchen where I was cooking dinner for the two of us. Wonderful memories. Wonderful years.

Dylan began composing music too, though mostly unbeknownst to me. Those were his teenage years. Years when his friends knew more about him than I did.

Here’s the lullaby I wrote for Dylan. I recorded a rough demo of the song on my guitar, originally titled “As I Tuck You In, I Lay Me Down,” the song now is called “My Child Above on Earth, In Heaven’s Care.”

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A Poem About Losing a Child

I Send All the Love My Heart Can Hold: A Poem About Losing A Child

I Send All the Love My Heart Can Hold
 
I send all the love my heart can hold,
Crescent moon on a love-hinged night, 

To where earth holds sky, galaxies kiss stars, 
To space and time lacking the constraints and pain of here now, 

To infinity and beyond what suspends me here,
Caught somewhere between the time and space between us,

Grounded in what I can do from here, yet forever reaching to where, ethereal, you reach for me, too.


©Beth Brown, 2023
I Send All the Love My Heart Can Hold

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