Handwritten Song Lyrics to the song "My Child on Earth Above In Heaven's Care" composed and performed by Beth Brown, My Forever Son: Chronicling Grief, Hope, and Healing After Losing My Son to Suicide, "Songs for Child Loss" Beth Brown
Lyrics, “As I Tuck You In” My Forever Son

As I Tuck You In: A Lullaby for the Child I Lost

“As I Tuck You In”-A Lullaby for the Child I Lost,My Forever Son, All Music & Lyrics ©Beth Brown

Lyrics for the Song: As I Tuck You In

As I Tuck You In

As I tuck you in, I lay me down
As I hold you now, I lift my arms
As I fall asleep, I pray for you
My child, my love, my heart, I’m with you too
My child, my love, my heart, may God keep and love you

And you will be forevermore
Safe from this world and so adored
And God will be your comforter
And I will always thank God for rescuing you
And I will always praise God for loving you too

And so I live my life in memory
Surrendering to God, what now must be
But here on earth I know the angels sing
When I hear your voice I know God’s listening

And I will always be your mother here

And I will speak your name for all to

hear

And God will be with you ’til I get there

My child on earth above in heaven’s care

My child on earth above in heaven’s care.


All Music & Lyrics: ©Beth Brown, As I Tuck You In: A Lullaby for the Child I Lost,
My Forever Son

As I Tuck You In: Remembering Dylan

Photograph of plastic toy Schroeder and his piano with a bust of Beethoven sitting on it, photographed for My Forever Son: Chronicling Grief, Hope, and Healing After Losing My Son to Suicide, "My Child on Earth Above In Heaven's Care"
Schroeder and His Piano, My Forever Son

Remembering Dylan

I wrote and recorded this song, As I Tuck You In, as a lullaby for my son Dylan. I’ve written 18 songs altogether about losing my son. Each song is born from a grief too deep for expression in any language save music. My Child on Earth Above, In Heaven’s Care is a lullaby. Dylan is, was, and always will be my heart’s song. I miss my son.

I remember when Dylan was 8 years old, just beginning piano lessons, and I used to drive him to a local university to take lessons in their music conservatory. We would make the same trip to the university each week for the next 6 years.

I loved hearing Dylan practice. Schroeder, from “Charlie Brown,” always sat on top of the upright Schuerman piano. Scott Joplin’s ragtime, Snoopy’s happy dance song, classical pieces, and eventually, jazz (Thelonious Monk) all wafted up from the lower level of our house into the kitchen where I was cooking dinner for the two of us. Wonderful memories. Wonderful years.

Dylan began composing music too, though mostly unbeknownst to me. Those were his teenage years. Years when his friends knew more about him than I did.

Here’s the lullaby I wrote for Dylan. I recorded a rough demo of the song on my guitar, originally titled “As I Tuck You In, I Lay Me Down,” the song now is called “My Child Above on Earth, In Heaven’s Care.”

As I Tuck You In-A Lullaby for My Son, All Music & Lyrics ©Beth Brown, My Forever Son
A close-up photograph of a piano keyboard made by Schuerman. photographed for My Forever Son: Chronicling Grief, Hope, and Healing After Losing My Son to Suicide, Songs for Child Loss "My Child on Earth Above In Heaven's Care"
As I Tuck You In, All Music & Lyrics ©Beth Brown, My Forever Son

A Poem About Losing a Child

I Send All the Love My Heart Can Hold: A Poem About Losing a Child, My Forever Son
I Send All the Love My Heart Can Hold
 
I send all the love my heart can hold,
Crescent moon on a love-hinged night, 

To where earth holds sky, galaxies kiss stars, 
To space and time lacking the constraints and pain of here now, 

To infinity and beyond what suspends me here,
Caught somewhere between the time and space between us,

Grounded in what I can do from here, yet forever reaching to where, ethereal, you reach for me, too.


©Beth Brown, 2023
I Send All the Love My Heart Can Hold

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[…] As I tuck you in, I lay me down As I hold you now, I lift my arms As I fall asleep, I pray for you My child, my love, my heart, I’m with you too My child, my love, my heart, May God keep and love you And you will be forevermore Safe from this world and so adored And God will be your comforter And I will always thank God for rescuing you And I will always praise God for loving you too And so I live my life in memory Surrendering to God, what now must be But here on earth I know the angels sing When I hear your voice I know God’s listening And I will always be your mother here And I will speak your name for all to hear And God will be with you ’til I get there My child on earth above in heaven’s care My child on earth above in heaven’s care Beth Brown, "As I Tuck You In," My Forever Son […]

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