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“As I Tuck You In”–A Lullaby to my Son

“As I tuck you in, in Heaven’s Care” myforeverson.com

“Bury My Heart”

by Beth Brown (for Dylan)

I wrote and recorded the song below for Dylan. I’ve written 18 songs altogether. He always was my heart’s song. It is March–his birthday March 19th. Sigh…I miss my son.

I remember when Dylan was 8 years old, just beginning piano lessons, and I used to drive him to a local university to take lessons in their music conservatory. We would make the same trip to the university each week for the next 6 years.

I loved hearing Dylan practice. Schroeder, from “Charlie Brown,” always sat on top of the upright Schuerman piano. Scott Joplin’s ragtime, Snoopy’s happy dance song, classical pieces, and eventually, jazz (Thelonius Monk) all wafted up from the lower level of our house into the kitchen where I was cooking dinner for the two of us. Wonderful memories. Wonderful years.

Dylan began composing music too, though mostly unbeknownst to me. Those were his teenage years. Years when his friends knew more about him than I did.

Here’s the lullaby I wrote for Dylan. I recorded a rough demo of the song on guitar.

“As I tuck you in, In Heaven’s Care”

“As I Tuck You In, In Heaven’s Care” A Lullaby to my Son, my forever son

music & lyrics: ©Beth Brown

As I tuck you in, I lay me down

As I hold you now, I lift my arms

As I fall asleep, I pray for you

My child, my love, my heart, I’m with you too

My child, my love, my heart, May God keep and love you

And you will be forevermore

Safe from this world and so adored

And God will be your comforter

And I will always thank God for rescuing you

And I will always praise God for loving you too

And so I live my life in memory

Surrendering to God, what now must be

But here on earth I know the angels sing

When I hear your voice I know God’s listening

And I will always be your mother here

And I will speak your name for all to hear

And God will be with you ’til I get there

My child on earth above in heaven’s care

My child on earth above in heaven’s care

And I will always be your mother here

And I will speak your name for all to hear

And God will be with you ’til I get there

My child on earth above in heaven’s care

My child on earth above in heaven’s care

“As I Tuck You In, In Heaven’s Care” lyrics and music by Beth Brown

Dylan 

Dylan Andrew Brown, my forever son

By Beth Brown

Rememberer of dreams. Whisperer of gardens green.
At the whim of "Most Beloved" and a hot cup of tea.
I live life between, straddled here now and then,
My continuity through writing--
Pen dripping ink, mind swirling confused,
Love lingering still, and Most Beloved's purring soothes.

Blogger at "Gardens at Effingham" (where cats do the talking) and "My Forever Son" (where a mother's heart runs deep after losing her son to suicide)
Musician. Writer. Literary Connoisseur.
At the whim of a calico cat and a strong cup of tea.