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My Forever Son, My Beloved Dylan: Just Breathe

My Forever Son, My Beloved Dylan : Just Breathe: My Forever Son: Grief and Healing After Losing My Son to Suicide A mother’s reflections on losing her only child–her 20-year-old son–to suicide, this blog (My Forever Son: Grief and Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide) includes messages of hope and healing amidst acute, complicated,…

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Understanding ‘Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon’ Poem’s Heartfelt Message

Understanding ‘Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon’ Poem’s Heartfelt Message Summary Understanding ‘Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon’ Poem’s Heartfelt Message explores the profound grief and regret of losing a child to suicide through the poem, “Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon,” by author Beth Brown. Through vivid imagery and heartfelt repetition, the poem captures the enduring love…

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Holding True to My Son’s Narrative: “Shaped by Love” Poem Analysis

Holding True to My Son’s Narrative: “Shaped by Love” Poem Analysis Summary Holding True to My Son’s Narrative: “Shaped by Love” Poem Analysis by Beth Brown explores the profound connection between love and grief following the loss of her son to suicide. The poem emphasizes the author’s refusal to change her narrative of grief, asserting…

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Carrying the Heaviness of Silent Grief During the Winter Months

Carrying the Heaviness of Silent Grief During the Winter Months Summary Carrying the Heaviness of Silent Grief During the Winter Months acknowledges the unique pain of grief and the added burden of Seasonal Affective Disorder (SAD), especially during the winter months when the world can feel cold, silent, and heavy. It offers gentle encouragement, reminding…

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Finding Beauty in Loss: Reflections on Grief and Healing

Finding Beauty in Loss: Reflections on Grief and Healing Key Takeaways Summary Finding Beauty in Loss: Reflections on Grief and Healing shares author Beth Brown’s journey of grief and healing after losing her son, Dylan, to suicide. Through poetry and nature photography, she finds solace and a way to express her overwhelming emotions after suicide loss.…

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a stack of books about grief, hope, and healing after suicide loss, My Forever Son, Suicide is Not a Choice-Surviving Your Child's Suicide and Surviving Your Child's Suicide and Understanding Suicide: It's Not About Wanting to Die; It's About Wanting the Pain to Stop, also A Poem About Being Haunted by Guilt After Losing My Son to Suicide: Still From Sky I'm Falling; also books for loss survivors and Suicide Grief: Embracing Grief: A Poetic Journey of Love, Echoes of Joy, Shadows of Loss: Coping with Suicide Grief, Resources for Parents: Navigating Grief After Suicide
Books for Grief, Hope, and Healing After Suicide Loss, My Forever Son

Resources and Support for Grief and Healing

Resources and Support for Parents Mourning a Child’s Suicide

  • Coping with Guilt After Losing a Child to Suicide: Strategies and Support: A collection of compassionate books and resources designed to offer guidance and solace as you navigate the heartbreaking journey of coping with the loss of a child to suicide.
  • Help, Hope, Healing After Suicide Loss: Support, Books, Resources: This heartfelt post offers compassionate resources, comforting support, and thoughtful book recommendations for those navigating the profound sorrow of losing a loved one to suicide.
  • Download 3 Child Loss Poems: This heartfelt post offers an opportunity to download three poignant poems that deeply resonate with the pain and sorrow faced by parents who have tragically lost a child to suicide. These verses aim to honor their grief and provide solace during an incredibly difficult time.
  • Bury My Heart: Suicide: 19 Poems for Grief and Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide This heartfelt collection of nineteen poignant poems invites you to explore the complex emotions surrounding the loss of a child to suicide, offering a gentle embrace of understanding and comfort during a profoundly challenging time. Available now on Amazon Kindle.
  • What to Say to Parents Who Lose a Child to Suicide: This heartfelt post provides gentle and compassionate guidance on how to offer comfort and unwavering support to parents enduring the unimaginable pain of losing a child to suicide.
  • Navigating Grief After Losing a Child to Suicide shares a heartfelt journey of a mother grappling with the profound pain of her son’s suicide. Through her reflections on hope and healing, she offers a compassionate voice and understanding to those enduring similar losses. Her insights and supportive resources serve as a beacon of comfort, guiding others through this incredibly difficult time with empathy and solidarity.

Healing Words: Download 3 Compassionate Poems for Coping with the Loss of a Child

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A beautiful pink water lily floating serenely on a calm pond surrounded by green lily pads, My Forever Son

Two pink peony buds surrounded by lush green leaves, with droplets of water glistening on their petals, symbolizing beauty and resilience amidst loss, My Forever Son, From Sorrow to Joy: How Pain Colors Loss
Blooming peonies adorned with raindrops, symbolizing beauty and resilience amidst loss, My Forever Son, From Sorrow to Joy: How Pain Colors Loss

From Sorrow to Joy: How Pain Colors Loss

From Sorrow to Joy: How Pain Colors Loss beautifully contemplates how grief is intertwined with the profound love we hold for those we have lost. The author invites you to experience a heartfelt reflection that begins: “It’s on my refrigerator door—a small magnet lovingly placed between a “Choose Hope” magnet and a cherished photograph of my son. Using the magnet as a powerful symbol of the continuous struggle between pain and hope, the author conveys the poignant message that even amidst profound sorrow, there exists a pathway to light and joy. She beautifully illustrates the profound connection between sorrow and joy, emphasizing that light can indeed coexist with darkness in our lives.

Close-up of white and yellow daffodils in bloom, surrounded by green foliage, My Forever Son, Healing Grief: Embracing Quiet Tears After 3 Years of Loss
A cluster of blooming daffodils with bright yellow centers, symbolizing renewal and hope amidst the themes of grief explored in the article, My Forever Son, Healing Grief: Embracing Quiet Tears After 3 Years of Loss

Healing Grief: Embracing Quiet Tears After 3 Years of Loss

Healing Grief: Embracing Quiet Tears After 3 Years of Loss shares the author’s deeply personal journey through overwhelming grief as she approaches the memorial date of her beloved son, who tragically took his own life three years ago. This heartfelt reflection compassionately explores the intricate challenges of navigating life in the wake of such an unimaginable loss, bringing to light the quiet moments of sorrow that linger and the powerful emotions that resurface.

A close-up of purple lilac flowers surrounded by green leaves, showcasing their delicate petals and vibrant color, symbolizing beauty and renewal amidst the complexities of grief, My Forever Son, Loving Him Past His Pain: A Grieving Mother's Journey
A cluster of vibrant purple lilacs surrounded by fresh green leaves, symbolizing beauty and renewal amidst the complexities of grief, My Forever Son, Loving Him Past His Pain: A Grieving Mother’s Journey

Loving Him Past His Pain: A Grieving Mother’s Journey

Loving Him Past His Pain: A Grieving Mother’s Journey poignantly captures the profound sorrow and heartfelt storytelling of a mother as she reflects on cherished memories intertwined with her current reality. Through vivid imagery and deeply personal experiences, she crafts a touching narrative that gently weaves together the loving moments from her son’s life with the complexities of her existence now, as she navigates the landscape of loss and love.

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A charming golden puppy sitting by the window, looking curiously with its big, expressive eyes, My Forever Son, Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide

Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide

Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide explores the profound and heartbreaking sorrow that envelops grandparents facing the unimaginable loss of their grandchild. Throughout this painful journey, they find themselves mourning not only the precious life that has been lost, but also the broken dreams and treasured memories that will tragically remain unfulfilled for their own child, the grieving parent. 

A pathway lined with patches of grass and shrubs, strewn with fallen leaves, creating a serene and reflective atmosphere, symbolizing the journey through grief and reflection, My Forever Son, Walking Through Shadows: Surviving the Unthinkable Loss of a Child to Suicide
A quiet path lined with fallen leaves, symbolizing the journey through grief and reflection, My Forever Son, Walking Through Shadows: Surviving the Unthinkable Loss of a Child to Suicide

Walking Through Shadows: Surviving the Unthinkable Loss of a Child to Suicide

Walking Through Shadows: Surviving the Unthinkable Loss of a Child to Suicide offers a deeply moving and heartfelt narrative that illuminates the unimaginable pain of losing a child to suicide. The personal stories shared create a sincere and unfiltered glimpse into the heavy journey of grief and the gradual path toward healing. The author compassionately underscores the vital importance of honoring one’s own story and seeking out supportive connections during such a dark time.

A close-up of vibrant red roses with lush green leaves, showcasing their beauty and rich color, symbolizing love and remembrance, My Forever Son, Navigating Grief: Reflections Three Years After Losing My Son to Suicide
A vibrant cluster of deep red roses, symbolizing love and remembrance, My Forever Son, Navigating Grief: Reflections Three Years After Losing My Son to Suicide 

Navigating Grief: Reflections Three Years After Losing My Son to Suicide

Navigating Grief: Reflections Three Years After Losing My Son to Suicide is a collection of reflections and resources documenting the author’s journey through grief after losing her son, Dylan, to suicide. The blog offers comfort, practical guidance, and hope to those navigating bereavement, sharing stories of love, remembrance, and the enduring bond between mother and son. Through poems, articles, and resources, the author aims to create a compassionate community for grieving parents.


Professional Resources

Parents of Suicides: An Online Support Group for Parents Who Lose a Child to Suicide

Two snow-white peonies in full bloom, My Forever Son, Navigating Grief: A Parent's Journey After a Child's Suicide

Suicide is the anchor point on a continuum of suicidal thoughts & behaviors. This continuum is one that ranges from risk-taking behaviors at one end, extends through different degrees & types of suicidal thinking, & ends with suicide attempts and suicide.  

Dr. Kay Redfield Jamison, National Library of Medicine


Parents of Suicides is a dedicated international online closed email group where parents who have lost a child to suicide come together to offer support, hope, and healing. Join a Community of Understanding. Parents of Suicides (PoS) provides a safe space for sharing experiences, coping mechanisms, and emotional support. You are not alone in this journey. Together, we can find strength and solace.


Professional Resources and Support

American Foundation for Suicide Prevention is a compassionate nonprofit organization devoted to saving lives and offering hope to individuals and families impacted by the profound pain of suicide.



Close-up of a vibrant red rose blooming among green leaves against a soft, blurred background symbolizing beauty and resilience in times of grief, Healing Through Poetry: Grieving a Child’s Loss to Suicide, My Forever Son
A single red rose blooming amidst the greenery, symbolizing beauty and resilience in times of grief, Healing Through Poetry: Grieving a Child’s Loss to Suicide, My Forever Son

Healing Through Poetry: Grieving a Child’s Loss to Suicide explores the challenging journey of healing after the heartbreaking loss of a child to suicide. Heartfelt poems and evocative visuals create a soothing experience, inviting readers to connect with the deep emotions in each verse. This blend of poetry and photography from the author’s gardens fosters an emotional bond, offering comfort to those with similar experiences while encouraging them to acknowledge their pain, cherish memories, and seek healing amid despair.

“He Left Too Soon”: A Mother’s Deep Sorrow

He Left Too Soon” Poem: A Mother’s Deep SorrowHe Left Too Soon” Poem: A Mother’s Deep Sorrow is a poignant poem that bravely addresses the profound sorrow and anguish that comes with losing a beloved child to suicide. The poem aims to express the deep and complex emotions of grief, loss, and yearning, capturing the overwhelming turmoil that families face during such an unimaginable tragedy. The inspiration for the poem, “He Left Too Soon,” delves into the profound depths of early, acute grief following the heartbreaking loss of my son to suicide. This piece encapsulates themes of grief, mourning, remembrance, and the enduring love that persists even in the face of overwhelming sorrow.

A dramatic sky filled with dark storm clouds, hinting at an impending storm, with power lines and trees silhouetted against the background, symbolizing the emotional turmoil and grief explored in the poem 'He Left Too Soon.' Derecho: A Storm Out of Nowhere--Grief Poem: "He Left Too Soon"
A dramatic sky filled with dark, looming storm clouds, symbolizing the emotional turmoil and grief explored in the poem ‘He Left Too Soon.’ Derecho: A Storm Out of Nowhere–Grief Poem: “He Left Too Soon”

Derecho: A Storm Out of Nowhere–Grief Poem: “He Left Too Soon”

Derecho: A Storm Out of Nowhere–Grief Poem: “He Left Too Soon” skillfully intertwines the sorrow stemming from the loss of her son to suicide with the tumult wrought by a powerful Derecho storm that occurred on the day of his funeral. Included in her publication, Bury My Heart: 19 Poems for Grief and Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide, the poem that was inspired by the Derecho, “He Left Too Soon,” explores the profound grief and emotional turmoil she experienced. Through her eloquent writing, Brown aspires to offer solace to those enduring similar tragedies, thereby shedding light on the fragility of life and the enduring strength of love amidst sorrow.

A single red rose resting on white flowers, symbolizing love and remembrance, "On Baby's Breath and Angel Wings" Poem: Grieving a Child's Suicide, My Forever Son
A single red rose among delicate white flowers, symbolizing love and remembrance, On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” Poem: Grieving a Child’s Suicide, My Forever Son

“On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings”: Grieving a Child’s Suicide

On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” Poem: Grieving a Child’s Suicide explores the profound grief of losing a child to suicide. The author, Beth Brown, reflects on the painful memories of her son Dylan’s life, his love for music, and the helplessness she felt in his final days. The poem “On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” juxtaposes the beauty of Dylan’s childhood memories with the devastating reality of his tragic end.

Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon (excerpt)

But oh my son, if I’d only known
I’d have reached right in to your dark night’s soul–

I would have held on,
I would have clutched you,
I would have never let you go

But you told me
“Mom I love you”
Oh my child, if I’d only known.

Beth Brown, excerpt from "Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon": A Poem About Losing a Child to Suicide

“Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon”: A Poem About Losing My Son to Suicide

“Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon”: A Poem About Losing My Son to Suicide captures the profound sorrow of losing a child to suicide. Through vivid imagery, it honors the enduring love between parent and child, providing solace and hope for reunion. The poem is a poignant tribute to Brown’s son, Dylan, where the author remembers her son’s growing-up years, both cherished memories and moments where “If I’d Only Known” echo in her refrain. A powerful poem for parents who have lost a child to suicide.

A shipwreck caught in a tumultuous ocean storm, surrounded by high waves and debris, symbolizing the emotional turmoil of loss, The Emotional Depth of 'Beat Still My Heart': A Powerful Elegy, My Forever Son
A shipwreck amidst turbulent ocean waves, symbolizing the emotional turmoil of loss and grief, , My Forever Son, The Emotional Depth of ‘Beat Still My Heart’: A Powerful Elegy

The Emotional Depth of “Beat Still My Heart”: A Powerful Elegy

The Emotional Depth of ‘Beat Still My Heart’: A Powerful Elegy explores the deep emotional journey of losing a child to suicide. This poignant reflection through poetry captures the sorrow and despair of such a loss, blending personal experiences with universal themes of love and remembrance.The author navigates grief with verses that resonate, inviting readers to confront raw emotions and unanswered questions. Vivid imagery of a shipwreck in a storm encapsulates the unbearable loss, making the elegy a powerful tribute to a tragic experience.


A grieving couple at a cemetery; a woman kneeling on the ground, holding a red rose while crying, and a man standing behind her, offering support.
A heart-wrenching moment at a grave site, capturing the profound grief of losing a child, as a woman kneels in sorrow while a companion offers support, “Sorrow Buried in Love”: A Poem for Grieving Parents My Forever Son

“Sorrow Buried in Love”: A Poem for Grieving Parents


A close-up of vibrant pink roses with water droplets on the petals, surrounded by lush green foliage,  symbolizing beauty and remembrance amidst grief, Bury My Heart: A Poem of Unimaginable Loss, My Forever Son
A cluster of soft pink roses adorned with droplets, symbolizing beauty and remembrance amidst grief, Bury My Heart: A Grief Poem of Unimaginable Loss, My Forever Son

“Bury My Heart”: A Grief Poem of Unimaginable Loss


A grieving woman kneels beside a grave marked 'SON' in a cemetery, holding her face in her hands, surrounded by gravestones,  reflecting on loss and remembrance, "He Left Too Soon Poem: A Mother's Deep Sorrow," My Forever Son
A grieving mother at her son’s grave, reflecting on loss and remembrance, “He Left Too Soon” Poem: A Mother’s Deep Sorrow, My Forever Son

“He Left Too Soon” Poem: A Mother’s Deep Sorrow

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A carpet of vibrant red and pink leaves, symbolizing the beauty and transience of nature, invites reflection on loss and memory, Haunted by Guilt in Grief Poem: “Still from Sky I’m Falling”

Haunted by Guilt in Grief Poem: “Still from Sky I’m Falling”


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A close-up of a delicate, white peony, symbolizing softness and compassion in the journey of healing through grief, “Shaped by Love and This Grief Come to Stay”: A Poem on Suicide Loss

“Shaped by Love and This Grief Come to Stay”: A Poem on Suicide Loss

If only a mother’s love could have saved you,
Could have heard in the dark your heart’s cry,
She could have saved you yet both together,
Falling stars in a moonless sky.

Beth Brown, If Only a Mother’s Love Could Have Saved You”: A Poem on Grieving a Child's Suicide, My Forever Son

“If Only a Mother’s Love Could Have Saved You”: Powerful Poem

If Only a Mother’s Love Could Have Saved You: Powerful Poem explores the deep emotional pain of losing a child to suicide. The author conveys their experience through poignant verses that depict the raw essence of grief, reflecting the complex emotions of sorrow and longing. The heartfelt language serves as a reminder of enduring love in the face of unimaginable loss.

Scenic view of a tranquil lake surrounded by towering mountains and lush greenery under a partly cloudy sky, symbolizing peace and reflection amidst grief, My Forever Son, When Love Isn't Enough: "Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand"
A serene view of a tranquil lake surrounded by majestic mountains, symbolizing peace and reflection amidst grief, My Forever Son, When Love Isn’t Enough: “Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand”

When Love Isn’t Enough: “Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand”

When Love Isn’t Enough: “Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand” explores the complexities of suicide and includes a compassionate treatise written by the author, “Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand,” challenging the notion that it is a choice. The treatise, “Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand,” emphasizes the inevitability of death, regardless of the cause, and the limitations of love in preventing it. The author of the treatise “Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand” and this article, “When Love Isn’t Enough,” Beth Brown shares her personal journey of grief after losing her son to suicide, finding solace in writing and nature photography.


Beth Brown, Author

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Beth Brown, author and educator, sharing her journey of healing through poetry after the loss of her son

About the Author

Beth Brown is a writer, educator, and bereaved mother who shares her journey of healing after losing her only son, Dylan, to suicide. Through poetry, essays, and her blog My Forever Son, Beth offers comfort and hope to others navigating grief, honoring the enduring bond between parent and child and celebrating the small joys that illuminate the path toward healing.

Meet the Author: Writing Through the Abyss

by Beth Brown

There are places that cannot be mapped, only entered—terrains of loss where language falters and the heart, stripped of its certainties, must learn to speak again. I am Beth Brown, a mother whose son, Dylan, died by suicide at twenty. My life, once measured by the ordinary rhythms of teaching literature and nurturing a child, was pierced in two: before and after. In the aftermath, I found myself wandering a wilderness where time bent, memory ached, and the world’s colors dimmed to the hush of grief.

On baby’s breath and angel wings,
You bring me love yet still,
— “On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings”

I did not choose to become a chronicler of sorrow, but grief, relentless and unbidden, pressed its ink into my hands. I wrote because I could not bear the silence. I wrote because the ache demanded witness. In poetry, I found a way to hold both the weight of absence and the persistence of love—a language for the unspeakable, a vessel for memory, a place where my son’s name could still be spoken.

He left too soon,
Lifting life from June,
Casting torrents of rain.
“He Left Too Soon”

There are nights when the world tilts, and I am returned to the moment of loss, the fracture that remade me. Yet even in the deepest dark, I have learned to listen for the faint music of hope, the pulse of love that endures beyond death.

Beat still my heart,
Beat still my mind,
Weary though thou art,
Carry his love along with thine,
Though heavy on thy shoulders
Crost fields throughout all time.
“Beat Still My Heart”

My poems are not answers. They are offerings—fragments of a life lived in the shadow of absence, pieced together with longing and the fierce, unyielding devotion of a mother’s heart. They are the record of a journey through the labyrinth of grief, where each turn reveals both the ache of what is lost and the quiet radiance of what remains.

My child sleeps in a cradle of stars,
Gently rocked by the moon
Lullabies in his heart,
Heavens in galaxies swirl round to the sound
Of a mother and child’s love beating on.

Meteor showers, on the darkest of nights,
Bring comfort and joy to my child’s delight,
Aurora Borealis tints sky blue and green,
Where my child remembers his mother in dreams.

–“Falling Stars in a Moonless Sky”

There are questions that haunt the bereaved: Could I have known? Could I have saved you? The mind circles these unanswerable riddles, but the heart, battered and tender, learns to rest in the mystery.

I’d have reached right in to your dark night’s soul—
I would have held on, I would have clutched you,
I would have never let you go
But you told me “Mom I love you”
Oh my child, if I’d only known.
“Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon”

In the landscape of loss, I have discovered that love is not diminished by death. It is transformed—becoming both ache and solace, shadow and light, the filament that binds the living to the lost.

Body, mind, soul, rough and ragged,
Weeping tears falling still throughout time,
Carrying weight of mourning and grieving
Falling broken when thou wert mine.
“Beat Still My Heart”

I write for those who walk this wilderness with me—for the mothers and fathers, siblings and friends, whose lives have been marked by the unthinkable. My hope is that in these poems, you will find not only the echo of your own sorrow, but also the quiet assurance that you are not alone.

Starlight for a mobile twinkling ‘ere so bright,
To remember his mother that darkest of nights,
When slipped he from her grasp and fell through this earth,
Tumbling still planets, sun, folding time in rebirth.
— “Falling Stars in a Moonless Sky”

That we might understand we cannot separate mental illness from physical illness and that try as we might, we cannot see inside another’s pain.

–“Ode to Suicide: That We Might Understand”

And how my heart keeps on beating
Is a mystery to all,
For without you beside me
Through life’s depth I crawl
.

I live now life backwards
My heart beating in time,
To the life that we lived
When you, child, were mine.

Try as I might
I can’t seem to live,
For my dreams all belonged,
To your future forward lived.

“Bury My Heart”

If you have come here searching for words to companion your grief, I welcome you. My poetry is not a map, but a lantern—casting light on the path we walk, together and alone, toward a horizon where love, undiminished, endures.

But boughs break and love falls through the cracks in the earth,
And the centre can’t hold when orbits, slung far, break their girth,
Gravitational interference, passing stars in the night,
Jetting orbs, falling stars in a moonless sky.
“Falling Stars in a Moonless Sky”

Grief is wild—untamed, unending, and full of shadows. Yet within its depths, I have found moments of light: a memory, a poem, the gentle rustle of leaves, the warmth of a cup of tea. My words are both ache and love, a testament that even in the deepest sorrow, we can find meaning, connection, and—sometimes—hope. Through poetry, I reach for my son and for all who walk this path. If you find yourself here, know that you are not alone, and that love—like poetry—endures.


If you wish to read more, my collection, Bury My Heart: 19 Poems for Grief and Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide is available on Amazon Kindle. and many other reflections await you at myforeverson.com.

Bury My Heart

Bury My Heart: 19 Poems for Grief and Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide

Heartfelt Stories of Love, Loss, and Remembrance

Explore heartfelt narratives and reflections on the profound strength of love, the agony of loss, and the enduring essence of remembering those we cherished and lost. In these stories, delve into the intricate tapestry of emotions that love weaves, showcasing not only the joyous moments but also the poignant struggles that arise in times of sorrow.

A close-up of a young woman with long hair, gazing down thoughtfully, with gentle shadows highlighting her face., symbolizing the journey of grief and remembrance, The Backstory to My Forever Son: A Mother's Grief, My Forever Son
A woman reflecting on her emotions, symbolizing the journey of grief and remembrance, The Backstory to My Forever Son: A Mother’s Grief, My Forever Son

The Backstory to My Forever Son: A Mother’s Grief

The Backstory to My Forever Son: A Mother’s Grief recounts the author’s experience of losing her son to suicide, highlighting her grief, guilt, and the healing power of writing. The blog “My Forever Son” emerged as a way for her to navigate this devastating loss, serving as a platform for sharing experiences and finding solace in community. My Forever Son: Healing After Losing a Child to Suicide is a heartfelt blog by Beth Brown that chronicles her profound journey through grief and healing following the suicide of her son, Dylan, using poetry, reflections, and nature photography.

Overview of My Forever Son Blog

Beth Brown’s blog, My Forever Son: Healing After Losing My Son to Suicide, is an intimate account of her life after losing her 20-year-old son, Dylan, to suicide. The blog captures her harrowing experience of grief, the guilt and despair she faced, and the ways she has sought healing over the years. Through writing, particularly poetry, she expresses emotions that had been otherwise inexpressible during the early, overwhelming stages of her mourning 

Content and Themes

  • Poems as Reflection and Healing: The blog features a series of poems, including Find Hope Here: Poetic Reflections on Grief and Healing which explore the depth of sorrow, longing, and hope experienced after losing a child. These poems often intertwine personal narratives and memories, offering readers insight into the emotional journey of a bereaved parent.
  • Personal Journey: Beth shares the timeline of her grief, describing the initial devastation, the silencing of her voice, and her struggle to find hope. Writing began as a journal, eventually transforming into a poetic endeavor that allowed her to process sorrow while reconnecting with her creative and expressive self.
  • Photography and Nature as Healing: The blog incorporates photographs of Beth’s gardens across seasons, showing how observing the cycles of nature helped her find moments of calm, renewal, and hope amid grief. Spring blooms and gradual seasonal changes symbolize resilience and the eventual emergence of joy following loss 
  • Community and Support: The blog also emphasizes the importance of connecting with others who have experienced similar loss, highlighting that shared grief can reduce the sense of isolation that often accompanies bereavement 

Purpose and Impact

The aim of My Forever Son is to offer solace and understanding to parents confronting child loss, providing a space for reflection and healing. Through her poetry, Beth Brown shows that grief can endure, yet moments of hope and remembrance are possible. Her work is part of Find Hope Here: Poetic Reflections on Grief and Healing including 19 poems on love, loss, and recovery, sharing her son’s life and her reflections on carrying grief with cherished memories.

A Magnolia tree with golden leaves stands against a backdrop of a sunny sky and a brick wall, symbolizing resilience and the cyclical nature of grief, My Forever Son, The Magnolia Tree: A Symbol of Grief and Resilience
A Magnolia tree showcasing vibrant yellow leaves, symbolizing resilience and the cyclical nature of grief, My Forever Son, The Magnolia Tree: A Symbol of Grief and Resilience

The Magnolia Tree: A Symbol of Grief and Resilience

The Magnolia Tree: A Symbol of Grief and Resilience is a heartfelt exploration of the author’s journey through grief after losing her son to suicide. It draws parallels between the cycles of nature and the seasons of healing, illustrated by the vibrant blooms of spring and the dormancy of winter. The magnolia tree symbolizes both grief and resilience, representing enduring love and remembrance of “My Forever Son.” With its association of strength, dignity, and perseverance, the magnolia serves as a fitting emblem for perseverance in the face of loss. Its blooms evoke purity and beauty, creating a gentle tribute to a loved one.

In mourning a child, the magnolia embodies the pain of loss and the hope of healing. Planting one acts as a living memorial, where love grows alongside the tree, and its blooms symbolize the endurance of the heart. Magnolia trees signify the continuity of life, offering comfort during grief, and many families choose them for gardens, finding a representation of both sorrow and hope. The magnolia stands as a living tribute to grief and eternal memory.

A family gathering around a dining table, featuring a young girl serving a sausage dish, with adults smiling and enjoying the meal together. ymbolizing connection and tradition, My Forever Son, A Grandmother's Love Held Together the Family Table
A warm family gathering around the dinner table, sharing food and laughter, symbolizing connection and tradition, My Forever Son,“A Grandmother’s Love Held Together the Family Table

A Grandmother’s Love Held Together the Family Table

A grandmother’s enduring love is the invisible thread that binds generations, keeping the family together and filling hearts with warmth.

“A Grandmother’s Love Held Together the Family Table” is a heartwarming story about a family’s enduring love, symbolized by a family table. The table, originally purchased by the grandmother, becomes a sacred space where the family gathers, sharing laughter, joy, and celebrations. The narrative explores the profound grief of losing a child to suicide, highlighting how the family table becomes a site of reflection and remembrance.

A Grandmother’s Love Held Together the Family Table beautifully captures the essence of family connection. A grandmother serves as the cornerstone of family life, nurturing traditions and offering unconditional love. Her presence weaves comfort and wisdom into daily moments, inspiring kindness in children. A grandmother’s love acts as the glue that holds a family together, creating warmth and shared memories around the table.

A young man smiling while sitting on a porch, wearing a black t-shirt with a graphic design, against a wooden background, 
A vibrant young man smiling joyfully while sitting casually, embodying the spirit of camaraderie and warmth, Dylan: Forever Loved and Remembered, My Forever Son
A vibrant young man smiling joyfully while sitting casually, embodying the spirit of camaraderie and warmth, Twenty Years of Love: Dylan, My Forever Son

Twenty Years of Love: Dylan

“Twenty Years of Love: Dylan My Forever Son” is a heartfelt blog post that honors Dylan Andrew Brown, reflecting on his life, enduring love, and the profound grief of losing a child to suicide.

Twenty Years of Love: Dylan is a beautiful guest post by the author’s sister that looks back over the life of Dylan, reflecting on cherished memories, significant milestones, and the profound impact he had on the lives of those who loved him. The post invites readers to journey through the years alongside Dylan, celebrating his accomplishments, the lessons learned, and the indelible mark he left on the hearts of family and friends alike. It serves not only as a tribute but also as a heartfelt reminder of the power of love and remembrance, encouraging everyone to hold tight to their own memories of those who have touched their lives. Twenty Years of Love: Dylan, gone too soon. 

Key themes in this post include:

  • Enduring Love: A mother’s connection with her son continues even after death, showing that grief is interwoven with remembrance and devotion 
  • Grief and Healing: The blog is part of a broader effort to chronicle grief and share hope, offering support to others coping with the loss of a child 
  • Personal Tribute: Dylan is remembered as a gifted student, musician, friend, and beloved son, with his achievements and personality celebrated alongside the grief 

A close-up image of a golden cocker spaniel puppy with soft fur and expressive eyes, wearing a red collar with a decorative pattern, Cocker Spaniel Puppy, Grandparents' Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide, My Forever Son
A cute golden puppy with soulful eyes, wearing a red collar, capturing the essence of innocence and joy, Cocker Spaniel Puppy, Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide, My Forever Son.

Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide

Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide explores the profound grief experienced by grandparents who endure the heartbreaking loss of a grandchild to the tragic circumstances of suicide, delving into the emotional turmoil, feelings of helplessness, and the complex process of mourning that accompanies such a devastating multiple loss. A grandparent grieves not just for their grandchild, but also for their own child whose life is forever changed.

The grief grandparents experience after losing a grandchild to suicide is profound and multifaceted, often described as a “double grief” because it involves mourning both the grandchild and the deep pain of their own child, the parent.

Unique Emotional Journey for Grandparents
Grandparents’ grief is often intense and complicated by feelings of helplessness knowing their own child is deeply suffering. They may experience shock, numbness, guilt, anger, and profound sadness, sometimes feeling invisible or “forgotten mourners” as attention tends to focus on the parents. This grief often lasts much longer than society expects and involves many emotional ups and downs. Grandparents may struggle to express their loss openly, yet their need to acknowledge and remember the grandchild remains strong.

Heartfelt Stories and Poems of Love and Loss

A single red rose resting on a bed of white flowers, symbolizing love and remembrance, symbolizing love and remembrance, “On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” Poem: Grieving a Child’s Suicide
A vibrant red rose resting on delicate white flowers of Baby’s Breath, symbolizing love and remembrance, “On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” Poem: Grieving a Child’s Suicide

“On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” Poem: Grieving a Child’s Suicide

“On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” Poem: Grieving a Child’s Suicide delves into the deep, heart-wrenching sorrow of losing a child to suicide. This poignant piece not only articulates the immense pain of such a loss but also provides vital resources to navigate the challenging journey of grief. With tender personal reflections and thoughtful coping strategies, the post and poem, “On Baby’s Breath and Angel Wings” serves as a compassionate companion for those who are enduring similar heartaches. 

A family gathering at a beautifully set table, featuring candles and a vase of pink roses, reflecting moments of love, loss, and healing, My Forever Son, A Grandmother’s Love Held Together the Family Table

A Grandmother’s Love Held Together the Family Table

A Grandmother’s Love Held Together the Family Table chronicles a family’s journey through the loss of their beloved son, Dylan. This tragedy alters their connections, turning a joyful gathering space into one of reflection. The narrative captures the struggle between despair and acceptance, underscoring love’s enduring power amidst heartache. In honoring Dylan’s memory, they find unexpected joy in their grief, illustrating the resilience of the human spirit in the face of loss.

A close-up of a golden puppy with soft fur and expressive eyes, sitting on a bed of pine needles, wearing a blue collar and leash, Grandparents' Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide
A fluffy puppy sitting outdoors, embodying innocence and companionship, My Forever Son, Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide

Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide

Grandparents’ Double Grief: Losing a Grandchild to Suicide gently delves into the profound and heart-wrenching sorrow experienced by grandparents who endure the unimaginable loss of their grandchild. This painful journey envelops them in a dual mourning, as they grieve not only the precious life that is gone but also the shattered dreams and cherished memories that will sorrowfully remain unrealized for their own child, the grieving parent.

A mother sitting beside her son in a hospital bed, expressing concern and sadness as he sleeps, and embodying the pain and hope intertwined with the journey of healing and survival, My Forever Son
A mother watches over her son in a hospital bed, embodying the pain and hope intertwined with the journey of healing and survival, My Forever Son, Memorial Day: A Mother’s Reflection on Loss, Love, and Unbearable Tragedy

Memorial Day: A Mother’s Reflection on Loss, Love, and Unbearable Tragedy

Memorial Day: A Mother’s Reflection on Loss, Love, and Unbearable Tragedy beautifully captures the deep sorrow and unwavering love a mother feels for her son. The author bravely shares her heartfelt journey, navigating the immense pain and heartbreak tied to her son’s fourth suicide attempt on Memorial Day. Through her poignant narrative, she reveals the complex layers of a mother’s grief, intricately woven with fleeting moments of hope that resonate powerfully with anyone who is facing loss.

Close-up of a soft white peony flower with delicate pink accents, symbolizing beauty and remembrance, My Forever Son, “Shaped by Love and This Grief Come to Stay" A Poem on Suicide Loss
A close-up of a delicate white flower with soft pink accents, symbolizing beauty and remembrance, My Forever Son, “Shaped by Love and This Grief Come to Stay” A Poem on Suicide Loss

“Shaped by Love and This Grief Come to Stay”: A Poem on Suicide Loss

“Shaped by Love and This Grief Come to Stay” A Poem on Suicide Loss explores the profound sorrow a parent endures after losing a child to suicide. It addresses themes of grief and guilt, highlighting the heavy shadow such a tragedy casts on life. This poignant narrative captures a parent’s transformative journey in the wake of their child’s absence, revealing emotions of shame while confronting societal stigma surrounding suicide. With compassion and insight, the poem resonates with anyone who has faced similar heart-wrenching experiences.

A vibrant yellow rose symbolizing love and remembrance, My Forever Son, 11 Years After Suicide Loss: I Still Want to Believe
A vibrant yellow rose symbolizing love and remembrance, My Forever Son, 11 Years After Suicide Loss: I Still Want to Believe

11 Years After Suicide Loss: I Still Want to Believe

11 Years After Suicide Loss: I Still Want to Believe powerfully conveys the depths of my unyielding grief and a relentless yearning for my beloved son, Dylan, whose vibrant spirit was tragically stolen by suicide eleven heart-wrenching years ago at merely twenty. As my only child, his absence has carved an immense void in my soul, reshaping every facet of my life while perpetually stirring the cherished memories of the beautiful moments we once savored together.

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