Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon
And once upon a blue-sky moon,
We sailed our ships in your bedroom,
With stars for light, we fled the dark
But the lightening flashed,
And the sky grew dark.
You tucked away your childhood dreams
On wings that soared beyond infinity,
Your love in me and me in you,
But out of reach, beyond what I could do.
I launched your dreams
You took great flight
On wings alone you soared too high
But you found ways to onward flee
To galaxies beyond my means.
I watched you drift through hazy sky
And chalked it up to a teenage angst,
But oh my son, if I’d only known
I’d have reached right in to your dark night’s soul--
I would have held on
I would have clutched you
I would have never let you go
But you Told me
“Mom I love you”
Oh my child if I’d only known.
So I kissed you and I held you,
And I said goodbye,
Not knowing, blue-star moon,
I would lose you that night.
You lived, you breathed, alive in pain
Through storm-dark nights and cloudy haze
But I didn’t know what I couldn’t see
The damage done beyond my means.
My sky is dark, my nights deep blue
My winter’s come, my star’s with you,
Without you here I cannot fly
My wings you clipped
When you took your life.
And I live on and onward flee
Towards you my son and to infinity,
Where dreams come true and you live on,
And we fly again around planets and sun
With stars that glow against the moon,
Your love in me and me in you.
I will hold you,
You will clutch me
We will never let go,
And you’ll tell me,
“Mom, I love you”
And tears from earth will overflow,
And I’ll know then, blue sky-moon,
To never ever let you go.
© Beth Brown, 2021
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