The following resources, book lists, narratives from parents who have lost a child to suicide, support groups, and more are meant to be a resource bank. Many have helped me keep on keeping on these past nine years of grieving.
It’s on my refrigerator door–a small, rectangular magnet wedged between a “Choose Hope” magnet and a photograph of my son. The image on the magnet startles. Think Edvard Munch crossed with Vincent Van Gogh. An image depicting a bit of both artists: the sheer starkness of Munch’s scream on a yellow-splashed figure with arms uplifted […]
Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon A Poem for Dylan by Beth Brown And once upon a blue-sky moon, We sailed our ships in your bedroom, With stars for light, we fled the dark But the lightening flashed, And the sky grew dark. You tucked away your childhood dreams On wings that soared beyond infinity, Your […]
Bury my heart I’ve come undone Sorting through this life My son left behind. And what I’m seeking I know I’ll never find His touch, his smile— His still living his life. And so instead I sift through A still life dream My heart and life with him Forever it seemed. And oh my son […]
Books and Resources on Suicide
For as long as I have breath–and journey on–so does my child. In the Beginning Insides feel like outsides, and suddenly, nothing is real. Or matters–Desperate, mind whirls around what makes sense. Nothing makes sense. Not my child– This has all been a big mistake. Surely this isn’t–couldn’t be true. A film descends. Covers thick. […]
My Forever Son, Dylan Andrew Brown The beat of my heart shaped by you. The song of you which still now I sing. And yet perhaps you could not hear above the deafening roar of your heart’s ache. Ghost memories swirl everywhere I drove home last night past the high school. Dylan’s high school. […]
“If only, if only, the moon speaks no reply; Reflecting the sun and all that’s gone by. Be strong my weary wolf, turn around boldly, Fly high, my baby bird, My angel, my only.” (Louis Sachar) When a Parent Loses a Child, More than the Heart is Broken Time does not heal all wounds. Some […]