My Forever Son: Chronicling Grief, Hope, and Healing After Suicide Loss

Living Backwards After Suicide Loss: Where Has Time Gone?

Post author By Beth Brown
Post date October 29, 2015
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Originally Published: My Forever Son, My Beloved Dylan : The Unwanted Effect of Living Backwards After Suicide That All of Love Could Sweep Time Back Should’ve, would’ve, would’ve, If I’d only come to see, That might I future forward live To see all eternity. That I might know when and where somehow, And here and […]

Suicide: It Never Lets Go

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Post date October 29, 2015
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Rain Puddles Beneath Hemlocks, My Forever Son

Grief Begins After Losing My Only Child to Suicide Dying Inside. Holding my breath. Pain on the inhale. Pain in the exhale. Sharp pierce of pain. Heart pain. Constant. Mighty. Rhythmic. The rhythm now of my life, my lifeblood stifled, plugged, narrowed, struggling, constricted by this undertow of grieving. I’d like to think I’ve made […]

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Coping with Unfathomable Loss After the Suicide of My Son

Post author By Beth Brown
Post date June 22, 2015
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Where I Am Now after 3 Years of Grieving the Loss of My Son 1,095 Days Out and Still Counting I am the mother of a suicide. And in 4 days, Dylan will have died by suicide 3 years ago. 1,095 days ago. A lifetime, and at the same time, no time at all. Some […]

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My Forever Son, My Beloved Dylan : My Sister’s Reflections, An Excerpt from "Faces of…

Post author By Beth Brown
Post date May 23, 2015
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My Forever Son, My Beloved Dylan : My Sister’s Reflections, An Excerpt from “Faces of…: An Excerpt from “Faces of Suicide: Volume 2” (available as an e-book at Amazon for $3.00) This excerpt is written b…

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My Forever Son, My Beloved Dylan : Just Breathe

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Post date May 23, 2015
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My Forever Son, My Beloved Dylan : Just Breathe: My Forever Son–My Beloved Dylan March 19, 1992-June 25, 2012 Forever my heart, my wings, my love Suicide changes everything. and t… Get the Book

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My Forever Son, My Beloved Dylan : Memorial Day, Echoes and Hauntings

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Post date May 23, 2015
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My Forever Son, My Beloved Dylan : Memorial Day, Echoes and Hauntings: The Empty Chair Most days, I cannot imagine my life without my son. Perhaps this is why starting my day is so difficult. It isn’t a…

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My Forever Son, My Beloved Dylan : Memorial Day, Echoes and Hauntings

Post author By Beth Brown
Post date May 23, 2015
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Pictures of Dylan: Wanting, Missing, Longing

Post author By Beth Brown
Post date April 19, 2015
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January 2010 at Grandma’s house, Grandpa Brown is on the computer screen–the Dylan we all know and love Saturday night and I just miss him–everything, intensely. I want it all back–Dylan and Luci flopped on the couch, gaming, the comedy channel, the history channel, boys coming over for pizza, to game, to play music, to […]

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My Sister’s Reflections, An Excerpt from "Faces of Suicide: Volume 2"

Post author By Beth Brown
Post date April 11, 2015
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I Miss You

Dylan Andrew Brown Twenty years: from birth, from before birth treasured and loved, Dylan. Held now in God’s hands, held always in God’s hands but oh how I wish him back. Linda Brown Taylor, “Twenty Years” Remembering Dylan: Twenty Years By Linda Taylor “Twenty years: from birth, from before birth treasured and loved, Dylan. Held […]

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This Too Shall Pass

Dylan, Bethany, and Jeramiah April Something 2015 or at least I think it’s supposed to be 2015. I really am at my best when I don’t know the calendar day. I know it’s Friday–and Fridays are always good, feel good heading into the weekend. Last night I dreamt about Dylan. This is not unusual as […]

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Dylan–self portrait

Dylan–self portrait.

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