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A Short Animated Video-“I Had a Black Dog, His Name Was Depression”

Depression Yes. Just yes. I struggle with depression. I battle with depression. Sometimes daily, consuming every waking and sleeping moment. Sometimes randomly. No apparent reason that anyone else can see. Depression is a black dog. Great video depiction. Dylan struggled with depression-deep, deep dark depression. He fought for a long time and fooled us all […]

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“When Someone is Too Bruised to Be Touched”-On Suicide and Despair

That All of Love Could Sweep Time Back That All of Love Could Sweep Time Back Should’ve, Would’ve, Could’ve, If I’d only Come to See, That might I future forward live To see all eternity. That I might know when and where somehow, And here and now then see, To erase the dark and stay […]

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Why? After the Suicide of My Son-A Mother Remembers

I Will Seek Until I Find You And where will you run when arms reach (but you’re not mine) When I can feel still so strongly (holding you still in my arms) From here frantic I search wildly (but cannot ever now find) Little one in pictures (trying hard for one so young) Standing, but […]

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Finding Help, Hope, and Healing After Suicide Loss: Support, Books, and Resources

Few things can so devastate us as the suicide of a loved one, especially of one’s own child. Fr Ron Rolheiser If You’ve Lost a Child to Suicide These Resources May Be Helpful The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention page for survivors of suicide loss. The American Association of Suicidology’s Suicide Loss page. The A.F.S.P. […]

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Suicide is Not a Choice: Surviving Infinite Grief After the Suicide of My Child

Surviving Your Child’s Suicide Suicide is Not a Choice Current research absolutely supports the validity of mental illness. Current research and researchers in the mental health field know indelibly that suicide is not a choice your child makes. Beth Brown, My Forever Son Stopping the Stigma of Suicide Suicide is not a blot on anyone’s […]

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The Pain of Suicide: It’s Not About Wanting to Die, It’s About Wanting the Pain to Stop

The Pain of Suicide Video: Learning More About Suicide 10 Commonalities of Suicide Below are 10 commonalities of suicide, identified by suicide expert, Edwin Shneidman, author of The Suicidal Mind. The common purpose of suicide is to seek a solution: A suicidal person is seeking a solution to a problem that is “generating intense suffering” […]

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Coping with Regret and Guilt After Your Child’s Death by Suicide: “I Want to Believe”

I Want to Believe– I Want to Believe- –that with enough love and laughter, books and reading, friends and family, children grow up to be happy –the stage is set early for dreams to come true: Skies dazzle in brilliant blue, clouds drift idly, stretches of pastures and woodlands lend serenity -all families stick together–even […]

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A Song About Losing My Child-“You’re Free Now Child”

You’re Free Now Child I can’t see where you’ve gone And I don’t know how to just go on Without you can’t find my way Don’t know where to go or what to say How to breathe without you now When it aches upon my soul In my heart, you live forever, with me by […]

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A Song About Losing My Child-Lullaby for Dylan

I wrote and recorded this song, “My Child Above (In Heaven’s Care) for my son Dylan. I’ve written 18 songs altogether about losing my son to suicide. Each song is born from a grief too deep for expression in any language save music. “My Child Above (In Heaven’s Care” is a lullaby. Dylan is, was, […]

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New in the Holiday Grief Series-Handling the Holidays After Suicide Loss

Healing Through the Holidays Nine years. 3,435 days. Umpteen breaths exhaled grieving. The impossible journey to learn to breathe in again. To breathe past your exhale. To breathe in because it’s in the inhale that air floods senses, whooshes down the windpipe, pumps air into filling lungs and language, words that wrap and shape around […]

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Holiday Grief Series-Handling the Holidays After Suicide Loss

“Taking Care of Yourself this Holiday Season” (The suggestions below for moving through the holidays after suicide loss can be found in their entirety at the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention.) by Doreen Marshall When we think about the holiday season, many of us connect to traditions which ground us in our histories, our feelings […]

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Struggling with Guilt After Your Child’s Suicide: “A True Tale of 2 Mothers”

Struggling with Guilt in Suicide Grief Parents of children who die by suicide often battle anadded type of guilt. Even if they do not blame themselvesfor not directly intervening in the suicidal act, they often feelguilt over some perceived mistake in raising their children.“Where did I go wrong?,” “I pushed them too hard.” and“If we […]

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One Last Mother’s Day Card-“I’ll Love You Forever Mom”

I’ll Love You Forever Mom “I’ll love you forever, I’ll like you for always, as long as I’m living my baby you’ll be.” Robert Munsch, Love Your Forever Three Years Out After Losing Dylan Originally Published 2016 Memorial Dates It has been 3 years of acute agony, pain, and the hell of grieving the loss […]

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Handling the Holidays After Suicide Loss

Handling the Holidays It’s important to remember that you can survive the pain. There may be times when you don’t think it’s possible, but it is. AFSP Struggling with Holiday Grief After Suicide Loss Do what you think will be comfortable for you.Remember, you can always choose to do thingsdifferently next time. AFSP, Surviving a […]

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A Poem about Losing a Child to Suicide-“If Only a Mother’s Love Could Have Saved You”

“If Only a Mother’s Love Could Have Saved You” by Beth Brown Bones bear girth where once, love birthed you, arms cradled and rocking, love holding me to you.   If only a mother’s love could have saved you, been there to catch your fall tears stilled by the heavens to where now and forever, […]

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Dragonfly Fable-A Story of Hope and Healing After Loss

I Am Always With You The Fable of the Dragonfly The Story of the Dragonfly The story of the dragonfly, an oft-told fable of the transformation of the dragonfly, has long been used to explain death and instill hope. Down below the surface of a quiet pond lived a little colony of water bugs. They […]

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Holiday Grief Series-Handling Holiday Grief After A Child’s Suicide

Celebrating the Holidays “Mother and Child”-A beautiful Christmas carol once upon a blue-sky moon. How much I wish my heart could still sing “Silent Night.” Now only “Mother without Child.” Still a mother but having lost her child. Still a holiday season of expectations. A season rich with symbolic meaning. A season of faith. A […]

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How Do You Fill the Hole in Your Heart When Your Child Dies by Suicide?

Imagine Sunshine Imagine awakening to sunshine. Birds sing-songing their morning choruses. Joy in the nesting season. Joy in raising their young. The hardwood floor creaks its familiar sounds on the way to the kitchen where you are greeted by Cerelean blue and Schoolbus yellow walls. Ceramic red, green, and yellow chili peppers (which are all […]

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Suicide Changes Everything-Struggling to Survive Grief After the Suicide of My Son

Suicide is not a blot on anyone’s name; it is a tragedy -Kay Redfield Jamison My Forever Son-My Beloved Dylan Suicide Shocks and Shatters Suicide changes everything. Immediately. Suddenly. Completely. Shattering everything. All is outside the natural order of the circle of life. And when a young person dies by suicide? When a young man […]

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When Pain Comes to Stay: “He Left Too Soon,” A Poem About Losing a Child to Death by Suicide

“He Left Too Soon” (Derecho) He Left Too Soon He left too soon— Lifting life from June, Casting torrents of rain His absence— Breath of pain whose exhale can only bring Heart heaving, this beating of tears Breaking loose— All hell in earth’s upturned rupture, Death shoveling shadows over me As I bend to lay […]