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The First Year of Grief After Losing My Son

Instrumental Guitar Music (Written and Performed by Beth Brown, Dylan’s Mom) To those of you that still feel you aren’t even sure you want to be here and you can’t imagine ever being happy again. The pain does change, it softens. You will want to live again and be able to enjoy life again. It […]

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“Do Not Stand at My Grave and Weep”–Poem and Song

“Do Not Stand at My Grave and Weep” By Mary Elizabeth Frye I give you this one thought to keep- I am with you still. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints on snow, I am the sunglight on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn […]

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Year 3 Memorial Date After Suicide Loss: Living Backwards Going Forward

  Living Backwards Going Forward I am aware, the further I come along this grief journey, the less I live forward. My Forever Son That All of Love Could Sweep Time Back Should’ve, Would’ve, Could’ve, If I’d only Come to See, That might I future forward live To see all eternity. That I might know […]

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Losing My Only Child to Suicide: “My Forever Son” Backstory

“My Forever Son” In the beginning, I had no words. I couldn’t speak. My voice was stilled. I lost my only child, my 20-year-old son, to suicide on June 25, 2012. In the beginning, who I was went away. What I did for a living went away. My professional life came to a grinding halt, […]

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Find Hope Here: Featuring Poems About Losing a Child

A Poem of Love, Loss, and Hope: “Tillers of the Earth and Tenders of the Soil” A Poem of Love, Loss, and Hope: “Tillers of the Earth” Tillers of the Earth and Tenders of the Soil We are the tillers of the earth and the tenders of the soil. These trees and plants and water garden […]

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“Do Not Stand at My Grave and Weep”–Poem and Song

“Do Not Stand at My Grave and Weep” By Mary Elizabeth Frye I give you this one thought to keep- I am with you still. I do not sleep. I am a thousand winds that blow, I am the diamond glints on snow, I am the sunglight on ripened grain, I am the gentle autumn […]

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Looking for Songs? Listen to Music About Losing a Child

Reflections on Dylan’s Birthday In 9 days, it will be my son’s 24th birthday, here, in earth years. In heaven, it will be Dylan’s 4th year birthday. Here, Dylan will always be 20 years young. This all seems to me still so surreal, so post-apocalyptic. I can’t find my footing. I am on the wrong […]

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Surviving Suicide Grief: “Does the Pain Ever End?”

The Pain Does Change “To those of you that still feel you aren’t even sure you want to behere and you can’t imagine ever being happy again. The pain doeschange, it softens. You will want to live again and be able to enjoylife again. It will never be like before but the crushing, allconsuming pain […]

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“When Someone is Too Bruised to Be Touched”-On Suicide and Despair

That All of Love Could Sweep Time Back That All of Love Could Sweep Time Back Should’ve, Would’ve, Could’ve, If I’d only Come to See, That might I future forward live To see all eternity. That I might know when and where somehow, And here and now then see, To erase the dark and stay […]

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Why? After the Suicide of My Son-A Mother Remembers

I Will Seek Until I Find You And where will you run when arms reach (but you’re not mine) When I can feel still so strongly (holding you still in my arms) From here frantic I search wildly (but cannot ever now find) Little one in pictures (trying hard for one so young) Standing, but […]

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Finding Help, Hope, and Healing After Suicide Loss: Support, Books, and Resources

Few things can so devastate us as the suicide of a loved one, especially of one’s own child. Fr Ron Rolheiser If You’ve Lost a Child to Suicide These Resources May Be Helpful The American Foundation for Suicide Prevention page for survivors of suicide loss. The American Association of Suicidology’s Suicide Loss page. The A.F.S.P. […]

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Coping with Regret and Guilt After Your Child’s Death by Suicide: “I Want to Believe”

I Want to Believe– I Want to Believe- –that with enough love and laughter, books and reading, friends and family, children grow up to be happy –the stage is set early for dreams to come true: Skies dazzle in brilliant blue, clouds drift idly, stretches of pastures and woodlands lend serenity -all families stick together–even […]

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A Song About Losing My Child-“You’re Free Now Child”

You’re Free Now Child I can’t see where you’ve gone And I don’t know how to just go on Without you can’t find my way Don’t know where to go or what to say How to breathe without you now When it aches upon my soul In my heart, you live forever, with me by […]

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A Song About Losing My Child-Lullaby for Dylan

I wrote and recorded this song, “My Child Above (In Heaven’s Care) for my son Dylan. I’ve written 18 songs altogether about losing my son to suicide. Each song is born from a grief too deep for expression in any language save music. “My Child Above (In Heaven’s Care” is a lullaby. Dylan is, was, […]

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New in the Holiday Grief Series-Handling the Holidays After Suicide Loss

Healing Through the Holidays Nine years. 3,435 days. Umpteen breaths exhaled grieving. The impossible journey to learn to breathe in again. To breathe past your exhale. To breathe in because it’s in the inhale that air floods senses, whooshes down the windpipe, pumps air into filling lungs and language, words that wrap and shape around […]

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On the Wings of Hope: A Resurrection Fable

I Am Always With You The Fable of the Dragonfly The Story of the Dragonfly The story of the dragonfly, an oft-told fable of the transformation of the dragonfly, has long been used to explain death and instill hope. Down below the surface of a quiet pond lived a little colony of water bugs. They […]

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Rising Up-Because Love Lives Forever

Rising Up because… Love lives forever. My son lives yet still. I will be with Dylan again. As long I live, Dylan lives too. Dylan lives on through all that I am. Dylan’s voice is now my own. Beth Brown, My Forever Son Rising Up because… I will not let the world forget my son […]

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A Poem of Love, Loss, and Losing a Child to Suicide-“Tillers of the Earth and Tenders of the Soil”

Tillers of the Earth and Tenders of the Soil We are the tillers of the earth and the tenders of the soil. These trees and plants and water garden were here before us, and they will be here after we go. We take care of them that they might take care of us and that […]

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A Poem of Love and Loss After the Death of My Son to Suicide: “If Earth Were Sky (And Sky Above)”

A Poem of Love and Loss After the Death of My Son to Suicide “If Earth Were Sky (And Sky Above)” By Beth Brown If earth were sky and sky above Then heart could hold this ache of love, Suspended, like rain, in clouds wanting to fall, But bound to sun’s joy because heart touches […]

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“Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon”-A Poem About Losing a Child to Suicide

Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon Once Upon a Blue-Sky Moon (for Dylan) And once upon a blue-sky moon, We sailed our ships in your bedroom, With stars for light, we fled the dark But the lightening flashed, And the sky grew dark. You tucked away your childhood dreams On wings that soared beyond infinity, Your […]