About My Forever Son

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About My Forever Son

Why I Started My Forever Son

On June 25, 2012, I lost my son to suicide.

A student at a prestigious Midwestern university, Dylan immersed himself in music, art, and digital design. His grades (which had been impeccable in high school) reflected the ongoing depression with which he had struggled since early childhood.

Dylan hid his sadness well—smiling and laughing with his family and friends, making silly faces and telling jokes to get others to laugh. Dylan thought deeply about things, and he cared deeply for his friends, oftentimes being there for others who were struggling while tucking away his own painful feelings.

Dylan is the reason I started My Forever Son. Writing is how I found my way through grief. I write personal narratives, poems, and songs about losing a child to suicide. You can read poems I write here: Find Hope Here: Poems of Love, Loss, and Losing a Child

Writing about grief, suicide, hope, healing, and child loss has been my way of clambering through the infinite despair and grief brought on by losing Dylan to suicide. You can find My Forever Son categories here: Categories: My Forever Son

Who Am I?

I am Beth Brown, Dylan’s Mom. When I started writing this blog (April 7, 2015), I had already been grieving for two years and 9 months. During those two years, 9 months, I read and researched as much as I could find about grief, suicide, child loss, losing an only child, and depression and mental health.

I am also a writer and teacher well-versed in adolescent literacy and teaching freshman composition. “I read, I write, I live,” wrote William Styron. Yes.

Why Follow My Blog?

Because love lost by a child’s suicide hurts. Forever. Especially when it’s your child. Parents who have lost a child to suicide, suicide loss survivors, those who have lost a family member or friend to suicide, and those seeking to understand the effects of suicide on those left behind come to my blog.

If you have experienced the heartbreak and devastation of losing a child to suicide, you will find resources, support, and hope here.

That we all might find peace.

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Beat Still My Heart: A Poem About Losing My Son to Suicide

Beat Still My Heart: A Poem About Losing My Son to Suicide Beat Still My Heart Beat still my heart, Beat still my mind, Weary though thou art, Carry his love along with thine, Though heavy on thy shoulders Crost fields throughout all time. In the deepest dark of the bleakest night, If light there…

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Bury My Heart: Poems About Losing a Child to Suicide

Bury My Heart: Poems About Losing a Child to Suicide Bury My Heart: Poems About Losing a Child to Suicide reflects a decade of finding my way back after losing my son to suicide. These 19 poems reflect the deep sorrow, grief, and confusion left behind after losing a child to suicide. Bury My Heart:…

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Songs for Child Loss

Songs for Child Loss ABOUT THIS POST: The content of the blog post is focused on sharing personal experiences and emotions related to losing a child to suicide. It includes heartfelt songs and their lyrics. The post also mentions a book of poems about losing a child to suicide that is available on Amazon Kindle.…

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Living in the Glare of My Son’s Suicide

Living in the Glare of My Son’s Suicide His narrative just started. Only a few chapters in. A promising start. Having left so much unsaid, unwritten. His chasm, your darkness. His absence, dark ache your heart. Beth Brown, Living in the Glare of My Son’s Suicide Listen to Your Narrative It isn’t wrong, this narrative…

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Index: My Forever Son

Index: My Forever Son This index provides a well-structured and user-friendly way to navigate through the content in the My Forever Son blog. Think of it as a helpful guide, carefully organizing the content into headings, subheadings, keywords, and brief descriptions. With this index, you can quickly and efficiently find exactly what you’re looking for.…

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Table of Contents: My Forever Son

Table of Contents: My Forever Son Parents Who Lose a Child to Suicide Losing a child to suicide is an unimaginable and heart-wrenching tragedy that no parent should ever have to endure. The pain, confusion, and overwhelming sense of loss can be completely overwhelming, leaving parents with a profound sense of grief that is difficult…

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What Happened?

What Happened? He Left Too Soon-A Poem about Losing a Child to Suicide He Left Too Soon He left too soon, lifting life from June, Casting torrents of rain, and in his absence, heaving beating of tears. I knew him from his first breath to his last.   He came a month early on cusp…

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Help, Hope, Healing After Suicide Loss: Support, Books, Resources

Help, Hope, Healing After Suicide Loss: Support, Books, Resources Few things can so devastate us as the suicide of a loved one, especially of one’s own child. Ron Rolheiser, When Someone is Too Bruised to Be Touched Support After Suicide Loss If You’ve Lost a Loved One to Suicide, These Resources May Be Helpful If…

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11 Years After Suicide Loss: I Still Want to Believe

11 Years After Suicide Loss: I Still Want to Believe About This Poem Hope and Loss I Still Want to Believe is a poem that reflects on my grief and longing for my son who died by suicide. The poem captures my desire to believe in hope and the pain of carrying the darkness of…

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Bury My Heart-A Poem about Losing a Child

Bury My Heart-A Poem About Losing A Child Bury My Heart (for Dylan) Bury my heart I’ve come undone,Sorting through this lifeMy son left behind.And what I’m seeking I know I’ll never find,His touch, his smile—His still living his life.And so instead I sift throughA still-life dream,My heart and life with himForever it seemed.And oh…

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