“I Will Seek Until I Find You”-A Poem About Losing a Child

Post author By Beth Brown
Post date January 19, 2022
3 Comments on “I Will Seek Until I Find You”-A Poem About Losing a Child

woman with backpack and hiking gear looking out into mist surrounded by a forest — ” I Will Seek Until I Find You,” My Forever Son

I Will Seek Until I Find You

I Will Seek Until I Find You

And where will you run when arms reach 
(but you’re not mine)
When I can feel still so strongly 
(holding you still in my arms)
 
From here frantic I search wildly 
(but cannot ever now find)
Little one in pictures 
(trying hard for one so young)

Standing, but not steady, little hand tucked inside mine
Holding on together climbing moonbeams to the stars
Once upon a time ago—forever in my mind
I thought us both impervious 
(Against the ravages of time)

Oh little one where art thou
Whence I call you once again
Dearest child, still my child on earth
(in a world so vast and big)
You've gone where I can't find you
(and seek still that which did exist)

If God can hear prayers from below 
(and you can see me now)
Please know I miss you terribly
(and will seek until I find)
A way to hold you yet again
(your hand yet still tucked in mine)

When fire moon red bloodies 
Little star that once was mine
Deepest blue on blackest night 
(I will seek until I find)
Little one beside me
 (your hand tucked inside mine.)

© Beth Brown, 2022

New Posts in Chronicles Blog

Child Loss to Suicide

Grandparents’ Grief After Suicide Loss of Grandchild

A Grandparent’s Grief The Family Table I was with my mother when she purchased the sturdy, long, pine table. With two leaves, one for each end of the table, this table would be big enough for our small, close-knit family. My sister and her family, including her two children, plus my parents, plus room now…

by Beth Brown September 29, 2022

Pink ground roses with yellow centers surrounded by green leaves

Child Loss to Suicide

Beyond Surviving: Suggestions for Survivors

Beyond Surviving: Suggestions for Survivors by Iris M. Bolton (Especially for newly bereaved parents) 2. Struggle with “why” it happened until you no longer need to know “why” or until YOU are satisfied with partial answers. 3. Know you may feel overwhelmed by the intensity of your feelings but that all your feelings are normal.…

by Beth Brown September 21, 2022September 21, 2022

Addiction, Alcohol, and Substance Use Disorders

Remembering Dylan: Twenty Years

Remembering Dylan:Twenty Years Twenty Years (Written by my sister, Linda) “Twenty years: from birth, from before birth treasured and loved, Dylan. Held now in God’s hands, held always in God’s hands but oh how I wish him back. In 1991, Beth called to share the news that she was pregnant. Beth had some health issues…

by Beth Brown September 14, 2022September 14, 2022

Close Up photo of Peach Daylily in Full Bloom in Summer

Child Loss

Matins: Reflections on Hope After Loss

Matins I. Somewhere, out at the edges, the night Is turning and the waves of darkness Begin to brighten the shore of dawn. The heavy dark falls back to earth And the freed air goes wild with light, The heart fills with fresh, bright breath And thoughts stir to give birth to color. II. I arise…

by Beth Brown September 5, 2022September 5, 2022

"Why?"

5 Ways Suicide Grief Is Different

5 Ways Suicide Grief Is Different Way 1: Blaming I received many compassionate words, cards, embraces, and acts of service when my son died. Dylan’s friends and family flocked to our house the morning of his death. They brought pastries from a local bakery, coffee, and huge condolences. Dylan’s friends gathered in our driveway, sequestered…

by Beth Brown September 5, 2022September 5, 2022

Child Loss to Suicide

Guilt in Grief: 3 Questions to Ask Yourself

Guilt in Grief That All of Love Could Sweep Time Back Should’ve, would’ve, could’ve, If I’d only come to see, That might I future forward live To see all eternity. That I might know when and where somehow, And here and now then see, To erase the dark and stay the day, To bring back…

by Beth Brown August 31, 2022

Child Loss to Suicide

Memorial Day-Echoes that Haunt

Here Comes the 25th Most days, I cannot imagine my life without my son. Perhaps this is why starting my day is so difficult. It isn’t always like this, and after two years and almost 11 months, I am sometimes able to greet my day with gratitude and balance, a centeredness that defies my tragic…

by Beth Brown August 28, 2022

Close Up Photograph of Lemon Balm Herb in Late Summer.

Child Loss to Suicide

Summer, Forever Summer

Summer, Forever Summer There is a common belief that suicide occurs most often in the cold months, especially around Thanksgiving, Christmas and other winter holidays. This is actually a misconception, however, as suicide rates often increase during the spring and summer. Centerstone, How Summer Affects Suicide Rates Cusp of Summer The end of June through…

by Beth Brown August 19, 2022August 29, 2022

a male striped cat surrounded by fall leaves

Coping with suicide

That All of Love Could Sweep Time Back-A Poem about Losing a Child

That All of Love (Could Sweep Time Back) That All of Love Could Sweep Time Back Should’ve, would’ve, could’ve, If I’d only come to see, That might I future forward live To see all eternity. That I might know when and where somehow, And here and now then see, To erase the dark and stay…

by Beth Brown July 18, 2022August 31, 2022

Loading…

Something went wrong. Please refresh the page and/or try again.

Get new posts delivered to your inbox.

Tags "I Will Seek Until I Find You" poem-my forever son, a mother who buries a child, a mother who buries her child buries her heart, a mother's grief after losing her son to suicide, a poem about the death of a son, Beth Brown-Poem, Child Loss, child loss grief poem, child loss to suicide poem, Coping with Suicide Loss, death of a child poem, death of child poem-my forever son, Dylan my forever son, Featured Best Poems about Child Loss-my forever son, Find Hope Here: A Collection of Poetry Featuring the Best Poems of Love and Loss, Grief, Grief after losing a child, grief over lost child poem-my forever son, healing grief after the suicide of a child, heartsongs poems of love and loss, Hope and Healing after Suicide of a Child, I miss my son, I miss my son-My Forever Son, I Will Seek Until I Find You, I Will Seek Until I Find You-My Forever Son, longing for lost child-my forever son, longing in grief child loss, Losing a Child to Suicide, Losing My Child to Suicide, Loss and Longing in Grief, loss and missing in grief of chld loss, missing a child poem, missing my child who died by suicide, Mother losing a child, mother losing a child poem, My Forever Son, My Forever Son poem about child loss, My Forever Son poetry, my forever son-dylan, My Forever Son-I Will Seek Until I Find You, My Forever Son-poems of love and loss, My Forever Son: Chronicling Grief, My Forever Soon-Find Hope Here: A Collection of Poetry Featuring the Best Poems of Love and Loss, only child loss poem-my forever son, parent of a suicide, parents of suicide poems, poem about child loss, poem about grief, poem about losing a child, poem about losing a child to suicide, poem about losing an only child to suicide, poem about missing a child, poems about child death, poems about grief, poems about losing a child, Poems about Losing a Child to Suicide, poems about loss of a child, poems from the heart, Poems from the heart after child loss, poems of loss, poems of love and loss, poetry about child loss, poetry about losing a child, Poetry about missing a lost child-my forever son, poetry collection about losing a child, poetry of love and loss, Suicide loss, suicide loss grief poem-my forever son, Surviving the Loss of a Child to Suicide, when a child dies by suicide, Why Suicide?, writing my way through grief, Writing to remember my child

By Beth Brown

Rememberer of dreams. Whisperer of gardens green.
At the whim of "Most Beloved" and a hot cup of tea.
I live life between, straddled here now and then,
My continuity through writing--
Pen dripping ink, mind swirling confused,
Love lingering still, and Most Beloved's purring soothes.

Blogger at "Gardens at Effingham" (where cats do the talking) and "My Forever Son" (where a mother's heart runs deep after losing her son to suicide)
Musician. Writer. Literary Connoisseur.
At the whim of a calico cat and a strong cup of tea.

View Archive

3 replies on ““I Will Seek Until I Find You”-A Poem About Losing a Child”

[…] Beth, Dylan’s Mom, My Forever Son […]

LikeLiked by 1 person

[…] “I Will Seek Until I Find You”-A Poem About Losing a Child […]

LikeLike

[…] I Will Seek Until I Find You […]

LikeLike

I Will Seek Until I Find You

New Posts in Chronicles Blog

Get new posts delivered to your inbox.

Share this:

Like this:

Related

By Beth Brown

3 replies on ““I Will Seek Until I Find You”-A Poem About Losing a Child”

Leave a Reply Cancel reply