“You’re Free Now Child”-All music/lyrics by Beth Brown
You're Free Now Child I can't see where you've gone And I don't know how to just go on Without you can't find my way Don't know where to go or what to say How to breathe without you now When it aches upon my soul In my heart, you live forever, with me by my side In my life, you're all I ever wanted My child, my one true love Without you here, each day that passes is just another day I must survive How to keep on keeping on How to open up my eyes Again to see what God has done You're free now child of mine to fly So rest on easy fly on by Soul travel now to be with God My dearest child, my heart of mine Know I'll be there when it's time I miss you more than words More than galaxies are wide I long to hold you as you were To have you reach across inside To where you live forever And to where I hold you close for life How to keep on keeping on How to open up my eyes Again to see what God has done You're free now child of mine to fly So rest on easy fly on by Soul travel now to be with God My dearest child, my heart of mine Know I'll be there when it's time Lyrics, You're Free Now Child Beth Brown
A Song About Losing My Child-Lullaby for Dylan
If only, if only, the moon speaks no reply;
Reflecting the sun and all that’s gone by
Be strong my weary wolf, turn around boldly,
Fly high, my baby bird,
My angel, my only.
Louis Sachar, Holes
Louis Sachar, Holes
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