A Song About Losing My Child-Lullaby for Dylan

All Music & Lyrics: ©Beth Brown

My Child on Earth Above In Heaven’s Care

All Music & Lyrics: ©Beth Brown

A Lullaby for My Son

I wrote and recorded this song, My Child Above On Earth In Heaven’s Care, for my son Dylan. I’ve written 18 songs altogether about losing my son. Each song is born from a grief too deep for expression in any language save music. My Child Above In Heaven’s Care is a lullaby. Dylan is, was, and always will be my heart’s song. I miss my son.

I remember when Dylan was 8 years old, just beginning piano lessons, and I used to drive him to a local university to take lessons in their music conservatory. We would make the same trip to the university each week for the next 6 years.

I loved hearing Dylan practice. Schroeder, from “Charlie Brown,” always sat on top of the upright Schuerman piano. Scott Joplin’s ragtime, Snoopy’s happy dance song, classical pieces, and eventually, jazz (Thelonious Monk) all wafted up from the lower level of our house into the kitchen where I was cooking dinner for the two of us. Wonderful memories. Wonderful years.

Dylan began composing music too, though mostly unbeknownst to me. Those were his teenage years. Years when his friends knew more about him than I did.

Here’s the lullaby I wrote for Dylan. I recorded a rough demo of the song on my guitar, originally titled “As I Tuck You In.”