“If Only a Mother’s Love Could Have Saved You”
by Beth Brown
Bones bear girth where once, love birthed you, arms cradled and rocking, love holding me to you. If only a mother's love could have saved you, been there to catch your fall tears stilled by the heavens to where now and forever, you forever are. Your descent of life hers, labored love born, on wings beating too wildly and too soon your own. Your beat of heart hers, now her own to live on, sick pulse of ache holding death in her arms. Oh my heart and oh my son, without you life empties yet love forever beats on. And so now, my forever, "Why?" replete in my soul, which has always, and still child, moved in grooves you made whole. If only a mother's love could have saved you— If only she had heard your heart cry, she could save you yet both together, Take back that night you fell from the sky. ©Beth Brown,2021 All rights reserved
My Forever Son
Where Love and Loss Bring Healing Home.
Remembering Dylan through Poems,
Memories, and Reflections from my Heart.
“Bury My Heart” Bury my heart I’ve come undone Sorting through this life My son left behind. And what I’m seeking I know I’ll never find His touch, his smile— His still living his life. And so instead I sift through A still life dream My heart and life with him Forever it seemed. And oh my son I’m still paralyzed In the grief you left me 8 years behind. Where canst I go? Whom canst I see? When all I want with you Is forever to be. And how my heart keeps on beating Is a mystery to all For without you beside me I live suspended in time. I live now life backwards My heart beating in time, To the life that we lived When you, child, were mine. Try as I might I can’t seem to live, For my dreams all belonged To your future forward lived. And so where now I goeth And where knoweth I dwell, Once again and all over Life without you is hell. I ache without breathing For to breathe is to die, Once again and all over Without you in my life. by Beth Brown (for Dylan) “Bury My Heart” ©Beth Brown, 2021 Bury My Heart
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