
Celebrating the Holidays
“Mother and Child”-A beautiful Christmas carol once upon a blue-sky moon. How much I wish my heart could still sing “Silent Night.” Now only “Mother without Child.” Still a mother but having lost her child. Still a holiday season of expectations. A season rich with symbolic meaning. A season of faith. A season of gathering round. Family. Loved ones. Children. But in a season of connection, rituals, faith, and joy unbridled, I find pain everywhere.
I feel most empty in a season meant to sustain hope.
Beth Brown, My Forever Son
I’ve been through the heaviness of holiday grief 8 times now. Perhaps the only consistency lies inherent in the reason I write My Forever Son: I lost my only child, my much beloved 19-year-old son, to suicide. Everything after that is completely at the whim of what it takes for me to make it through this time of year.
Struggling with What to Do

Holidays absolutely, faithfully, come round each year. My struggle is always the same:
- To do or not to do
- To go or not to go
- To back out of a plan
- To pull away into solitude
- To say “no” when I’ve already said “yes”
I have read-and continue to read as the holidays come round again-copious amounts of helpful tips and strategies for bereaved parents coping with holiday grief. Perhaps some of these tips and strategies for how to survive the holidays after the loss of your child will help you too.

It’s Okay Not to Be Okay
What helped the most? Perhaps just realizing that it’s okay not to be okay. Taking each holiday as it comes. Knowing I can do things differently. Collecting a bevy of helpful tips, resources, and strategies. Taking time to honor my grief.
It is not the grief you want to avoid, it is the pain. No one can take that pain away, but grief is not just pain, grief is love.
David Kessler, Grief.com

How to Survive the Holidays
The First of the Ongoing Series: Holiday Grief Series-Surviving Grief After Suicide Loss
Coming Soon-“Taking Care of Yourself this Holiday Season”
Included below are helpful tips for getting through the holidays and ways to survive grief at the holidays when you are a parent who has lost a child.
“Surviving the Holidays”
by David Kessler
“The holidays are times spent with our loved ones.” This has been imprinted on our psyche from a young age. Holidays mark the passage of time in our lives. They are part of the milestones we share with each other and they generally represent time spent with family. But since holidays are for being with those we love the most, how on earth can anyone be expected to cope with them when a loved one has died? For many people, this is the hardest part of grieving, when we miss our loved ones even more than usual. How can we celebrate togetherness when there is none?
When you lose someone special, your world lacks its celebratory qualities. Holidays magnify that loss. The sadness deepens and the loneliness can feel isolating. The need for support may be the greatest during the holidays. Pretending you don’t hurt and/or it isn’t a harder time of the year is just not the truth for you. But you can – and will – get through the holidays. Rather than avoiding the feelings of grief, lean into them. It is not the grief you want to avoid, it is the pain. No one can take that pain away, but grief is not just pain, grief is love.
David Kessler, Grief.com
Celebrating anniversaries, birthdays, holidays, and other occasions after a suicide loss can be challenging. These events can bring up painful memories and feelings, but they also can provide an opportunity to celebrate your loved one.
Follow your intuition and do what feels best to you. You can always choose a different way to observe the occasion the next time.

Tips for Getting Through the Holidays After Losing a Child to Suicide
Here are some ways to handle occasions that other survivors of a suicide loss have found helpful.
- Think about your family’s holiday traditions. Consider which ones you would like to continue, and which you would not. Consider developing new traditions if that feels best.
- Other family members or friends may feel differently than you do about the way occasions have been celebrated in the past. As you are able, talk openly together about your preferences before the holiday so you will know what to expect.
- Consider whether you want to be with your family and friends for the holiday, or whether it would be more healing to spend time by yourself this time. Consider taking a trip if that feels right
- Be aware that anticipating an event is sometimes harder than the event itself.
- If you find it comforting to talk about your loved one, let your family and friends know that in advance. Tell them it’s okay to mention your loved one’s name.
- If you would find it comforting, make a plan to get your loved one’s friends and family together to acknowledge her or his birthday. If spending the day alone feels like a better choice, or with just one or two close friends or family, that’s okay, too.
*Excerpts can be found in their entirety at grief.com*

Holiday Bill of Rights for Those Experiencing Grief
Adapted from other sources, this list reminds you that you have a right to experience your grief on your own terms:
- You have the right to say “time out” anytime you need – to arrive late or step away from family gatherings early, to be alone without explanation when you need to grieve in the quiet, to walk outside when you feel overwhelmed.
- You have the right to tell others how you are feeling with honesty – you’re not obligated to answer the way others might expect or want.
- You have the right to not be joyful every single moment of the holiday, but if you look for and feel joy and love during the holidays you have an equal right to that, too.
- You have the right not to send out holiday cards.
- You have the right to not listen to holiday music or participate in gift exchanges and/or holiday celebrations.
- You have the right to be excited about going holiday shopping then change your mind when you get there, or buy a present for your loved one and do what you want with it.
- You have the right to laugh at unexpected times.
- You have the right to be angry.
- You have the right to long to have your loved one back, to have the life you once had.
- You have the right to find a way to honor and remember your loved one during the holidays by whatever ritual you feel comfortable with.
*Excerpts can be found in their entirety at AFSP, American Foundation for Suicide Prevention*


Coming Soon: A New Chronicle
“Taking Care of Yourself This Holiday Season”

COMING SOON
“Taking Care of Yourself This Holiday Season”
A New Chronicle in the “Holiday Grief Series: ‘Silent Night’-Surviving Unspeakable Grief Without Your Child at the Holidays”
Featured Content: Poems of Love, Loss, and Losing a Child (By a Mother Who Lost Her Only Child)

Perhaps the figure is reeling from a loss so catastrophic that all one can do is scream to sky, to stars, to sun–to wherever forever is, to where forever is out of reach forever again.
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