
“He Left Too Soon” (Derecho)
He Left Too Soon He left too soon— Lifting life from June, Casting torrents of rain His absence— Breath of pain whose exhale can only bring Heart heaving, this beating of tears Breaking loose— All hell in earth's upturned rupture, Death shoveling shadows over me As I bend to lay flowers upon his name— Inscribed and bronzed, A permanence come to stay My love laced now with pain— Standing over my son's grave, Death's derecho come to stay in my shadow. “He Left Too Soon” ©Beth Brown, 2021
Derecho-A Storm Out of Nowhere

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