“Bury My Heart”
by Beth Brown (for Dylan)
Bury my heart I’ve come undone Sorting through this life My son left behind. And what I’m seeking I know I’ll never find His touch, his smile— His still living his life. And so instead I sift through A still life dream My heart and life with him Forever it seemed. And oh my son I’m still paralyzed In the grief you left me 8 years behind. Where canst I go? Whom canst I see? When all I want with you Is forever to be. And how my heart keeps on beating Is a mystery to all For without you beside me I live suspended in time. I live now life backwards My heart beating in time, To the life that we lived When you, child, were mine. Try as I might I can’t seem to live, For my dreams all belonged To your future forward lived. And so where now I goeth And where knoweth I dwell, Once again and all over Life without you is hell. I ache without breathing For to breathe is to die, Once again and all over Without you in my life.