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Pictures of Dylan: Wanting, Missing, Longing

January 2010 at Grandma’s house, Grandpa Brown is on the computer screen–the Dylan we all know and love Saturday night and I just miss him–everything, intensely. I want it all back–Dylan and Luci flopped on the couch, gaming, the comedy channel, the history channel, boys coming over for pizza, to game, to play music, to […]

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My Sister’s Reflections, An Excerpt from "Faces of Suicide: Volume 2"

An Excerpt from “Faces of Suicide: Volume 2”  (available as an e-book at Amazon for $3.00)  This excerpt is written by my sister, Linda Taylor, Dylan’s Aunt Linda. Monte and Linda before June 25, 2012 I wrote about Dylan in “Faces of Suicide: Volume 1,” also available from Amazon as an e-book for $3.00.  These […]

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This Too Shall Pass

Dylan, Bethany, and Jeramiah April Something 2015 or at least I think it’s supposed to be 2015. I really am at my best when I don’t know the calendar day. I know it’s Friday–and Fridays are always good, feel good heading into the weekend. Last night I dreamt about Dylan. This is not unusual as […]

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Holding on to Hope

Holding on to Hope If You Could Just Have Held Onto Hope. . . If you could have just held onto hope, Dylan–Myforeverson.com  I’m missing youI’m missing youI’m missing youI’m missing you… If you could have just held onto hope, Dylan– sigh. . . alwaysmissingandalwayslovingandalwaysadoringyoujustbecauseyou’reyou

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When a Parent Loses a Child, More than the Heart is Broken

“If only, if only, the moon speaks no reply; Reflecting the sun and all that’s gone by. Be strong my weary wolf, turn around boldly, Fly high, my baby bird, My angel, my only.”  (Louis Sachar) When a Parent Loses a Child, More than the Heart is Broken Time does not heal all wounds.  Some […]

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Call out to Dylan’s "Brothers"–Where are you now?

When Dylan died, 14 young men—ages 19-21, attended his funeral. They called themselves “brothers,” and they all grew up in and around my neighborhood, and they all attended the same schools. These are tightly-knit friends who have known each other since they were  5-8 years old and with whom they shared all of their growing […]

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Dylan–self portrait

Dylan–self portrait.

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Walking in My Own Shoes

The Tripartite Model of Suicide Bereavement By Diana Sands, Ph.D., Director, Centre for Intense Grief; author of the book and DVD Red Chocolate Elephants: For Children Bereaved by Suicide (2010), Sydney, Australia, Karridale How we talk to ourselves and others about the loss of our loved one can ease our grief or make it more […]

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On the Wings of Hope: A Resurrection Fable

A story from Dylan’s funeral service keepsake book, Friday, June 29th, 2012 A Resurrection Fable  “White Wings”  In the bottom of an old pond lived some grubs who could never understand why none of their group ever came back after crawling up the stems of the lilies to the top of the water. They promised each […]

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Just Breathe

My Forever Son–My Beloved Dylan March 19, 1992-June 25, 2012 Forever my heart, my wings, my love Suicide changes everything. and the deep, deep soul ache never goes away. Learning to live again is the hardest work I’ve ever done. I’ve gone deeply within the darkest, blackest, starless night, oceans deep, galaxies wide, to get […]